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Jongho ~Burden~

Jongho's POV

I get nightmares sometimes and while they aren't too frequent, all of the boys know about them and have seen me have one at least once or twice. Wooyoung and Yeosang are my roommates so they've definitely witnessed their fair share of my nightmares but they've also turned into heavier sleepers so they don't wake them up as everyone knows I go to Hongjoong or Seonghwa to help after my nightmares. That was no different tonight. I woke up sweaty and shaking although thankfully I didn't scream this time. I panted and looked around widely, my heart pounding in my chest. I threw the blankets off my body, allowing the cool air to hit my skin but it didn't help to cool me off much, nor did it calm my heartrate. I filled with the hem of my shirt for a few seconds, biting my lip before finally getting up out of bed. I quietly walked over to the door, making sure not to wake up Wooyoung or Yeosang as I slipped out. I closed the door before silently walking down the hall to Seonghwa and Hongjoong's room. Their door was slightly open and I could see the light peeking through which means they're still awake. I don't really know why they're still awake, considering it's the middle of the night but it wouldn't surprise me if Hongjoong only just got back from the studio and Seonghwa waited up for him. I was about to open the door and walk inside when I heard them talking, more specifically saying my name. I know I probably shouldn't but I did, I leant forwards and placed my ear by the door to hear what they were saying.

"Jongho's still having problems with his knee Hwa, I don't want to push him too far," Hongjoong said with a sigh. Push me too far? What does he mean by that? They'd never push me too much, in fact the boys have been telling me to sit out of practice lately.

"I know, and I don't either Joong, he's our Maknae and we're supposed to look after him," Seonghwa replied.

"He needs more of a break. Another comeback so soon isn't going to be good for him," Hongjoong said.

"You're telling me this? I agree Joongie, we need to push it back at least a few weeks, a little longer if possible. Do you think you could talk to PD-Nim and see if you can try and convince him to delay our next comeback," Seonghwa said. Oh my god, I'm going to be the reason we have to delay the comeback we've been practicing for a lot lately. I-I'm becoming a burden.

"I will, I'll tell him Jjongie needs more time to heal," Hongjoong said. NO. This is what I was afraid of. It's already a hassle that I've been needing to sit out of practices, now I'm going to be delaying the comeback as well. I can't go in there now. They need their sleep, and me going in there and whining about something so stupid is going to be even more of a burden. I quickly backed away from the door and shook my head before walking back to my room. I slipped back inside, glancing at Yeosang's bed where he was sleeping soundly before looking at Wooyoung's bed. I almost jumped in fright when I saw that there were two people there in the bed. That was until I realised that it was just San cuddled up to him, something that is actually quite common to see. San usually ends up cuddled with someone, most of the time Wooyoung but sometimes one of the other's. I let out a small breath and moved to my bed, slipping under the covers as I lay down and rested my head on my pillow. I was still anxious from the nightmare earlier but I tried to relax and go back to sleep. Unfortunately I've never really been able to fall back asleep after a nightmare unless I was close to someone. The one and only time I'm ever willing to cuddle someone, the ONLY time. My nerves were all over the place and I was jittery, continuously worrying about getting another nightmare if I went back to sleep. I let out a soft groan before quickly getting back up and leaving the room once again. I went the opposite way down the hall this time, walking to the dining room. It was dark but it was quiet and cool so I sat down on one of the chairs. I anxiously drummed my fingers on the table, unsure what else to do. I put my elbow on the table and leant my head on the palm of my hand. There wasn't really much I could do and before long, my eyes begun getting a little droopy. I tried my hardest to keep awake but my eyes continued to slip closed and it was beginning to become a struggle to reopen them.