I'm still in total shock about the News
I received. I have hoskins lymphoma
Stage two, after receiving my diagnosis. This explains why I was so sick these few months, Dr. Sinclair says l have 99.9 percent surrivor rate
Plus she informed me. They caught it just in time, l start my first round of chemotherapy therapy tomorrow afternoon. I'll be meeting with the dietitian, about what foods l can and cannot have during my treatments
I'm having a hard time processing everything. The only thing that keeps
Running through my mind is my kids
They won't be allowed in to visit me
For long periods of time, Stef suggested face timing them. It's not the same as seeing their little faces
Stef stepped out the room to go make a phone call, l know hearing what the doctor said. Hit her like a ton of bricks
I can't describe how l'm feeling right now. Maybe tomorrow l'll wake up and not have cancer, what did to deserve this to happen. I eat the right foods, run three miles every morning
Exercise twice a week. This is a total nightmare l wish I could snap my fingers and everything would go back to normal, that wouldn't be realistically. I lay thinking will Stef still love me, when l'm sick and can't get out of bed in the mornings. I know l'm letting my insecurities get the best of me, would if she falls in love with someone else. And she suddenly doesn't fine me attractive anymore cause l'm ugly, l hear the voice in my head say. I try to ignore these negative thoughts, that play in my subconscious. Stef would never do that to me, what we have is real
She would never break our wedding vows. I can't take these overwhelming emotions, l starting crying not knowing what else to do. Lena your stronger than this diease, you have to fight within every thing with you
There will be days when your gonna wanna give up and throw in the towel
Think about Nyla and Braylon. They need you. That will be your reason to fight with all your mite, a sweet angelic voice whisper l have been watching over you every since you were a little girl, l'll be your strength whenever you need me to be. Don't push your wife away, erase those self
Doubts from your mind. Stefanie will never in a million years cheat on you
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The mother she never knew) fighting the battle
RomanceLena Adams Foster a devoted wife, mother of two she's always been in perfect health. until she is face with a life altering disease, that turns her world upside down. she's gonna have to rely on the strength of her family for support, the doctors ar...
