It was Wednesday morning and l was showered and dressed ready to hit the highway to make the drive to LA
to find out what the hell was going on with Maggie. She's been ducking us for months, l let Lena know l'll be coming by the hospital later on this afternoon. Dammit l was supposed to spending the day with the kids and l can't even do that, l know definitely
Tomorrow l plan on taking them to the San Diego zoo. I hate going back on my word, technically I didn't tell them. I just don't like making promises and then break their little young hearts, this makes me look like a bad parent. We don't know when Lena's gonna be able to come home
I don't wanna blame her for getting sick, l just feel like everything's falling on my shoulders. I know the kids have, their grandparents and who do l have to turn to when l'm feeling down
I can't go to my wife who's trying to get better, l try so hard to make myself available as possible to be there for Lena, for our children
I barely have time for myself
I head to the bedroom and pack a bag
With a few outfits. I throw in my suitcase, and some clean panties,bras
Pajamas. Bathing suit, sandals
I zip up my medium size pull along suit case. I go into the bathroom and my shampoo conditioner, deodorant
Lotion, body wash, comb brush
Tooth brush, toothpaste. I put it all in my tote bag. I come out the E-suite
Grabbed my things go downstairs
Get my car keys off the kitchen counter, along with my cell phone
And charger. I walked towards the front door, l turned to look around the house. That feels empty pictures of our children on the wall, a photo of
Lena and I on our wedding day
I take a deep breath and walk out the front door, l lock up the door.
I go down the steps to my car, I unlock the trunk and put my bag in
Then I shut the top down. I get in the car, buckle up my seat belt start the engine up and pull out the driveway
Head down the hill. I continue to drive, as my eyes begin wetted up
I get on to the expressway that's going to LA. I know l'm not making the right decision by leaving my family behind
I keep driving straight ahead, some people might call me a coward
images of Lena's face enter my mind
I can see my son and daughter so clearly. I keep hearing my father's voice in my head telling me, you can't just give up and leave them behind
Dad what else am I supposed to do
I can't sit there and watch my wife
Stuffed day in and day out huh
Tell me what the fuck can l do
I asked him. You stick by your wife for better or worse, didn't you take vows at the altar. I raised you better than this Stefanie, go back to those precious babies you adore. I know your having a hard time coping with everything, you can't give up because your scared of the inevitable. Stef turns off on the next exit and heads back to San Diego, her eyes were filled with tears. Thanks Dad for talking some sense into me, mother's being a pain in my ass. Stef says to her father, don't worry about her
He said to me. I'm trying not to
But she keeps calling me, l tell him
Talk to your wife and let her know how your feeling. You can't things bottled up inside, you're drive yourself crazy. She seems like a amazing woman, l'll always be here
You were always stubborn as a little girl. Your daughter is just like you were at one years old, l laugh because it's true Nyla is so much like me
That it's scary.
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The mother she never knew) fighting the battle
RomanceLena Adams Foster a devoted wife, mother of two she's always been in perfect health. until she is face with a life altering disease, that turns her world upside down. she's gonna have to rely on the strength of her family for support, the doctors ar...
