It's six months since we found out that l had stage 2 Hodgkin's lymphoma. We've recently been told
I needed a bone marrow transplant
Because the chemo therapy isn't working, they say l have a 95 to 100 percent of surriving this cancer,
I'm trying to remain strong for my family. They have spread the word all over the hospitals nationwide,
When my oncologist suggested testing the kids l flipped out on her and l straight out told her no way and Stef back me up one hundred percent
My wife even went and got tested
We were told she wasn't a suitable match and we're back at square one
I have been getting my affairs in order in case things don't work out in favor. I don't wanna die and leave my wife and children, l loss all my hair
I'm 99 pounds. I barely could keep anything down these days because the treatments, so they had to insert a tube into my stomach thankfully I was put to sleep when they performed the procedure. So we sit and wait, we gotten called a few hours ago saying they found two suitable matches. With my blood type
We have to go to the hospital early tomorrow so I can check in, this has been a uphill battle for me and my family. I hope whoever they are
I get to meet and thanked them
For donating their blood to save my life, we haven't heard from Maggie in a while. I'm getting weaker by the day
I can barely get out of bed at times
I'm anger at God for giving me these disease. Having my wife bathe me
is embarrassing, she tells me that l'm beautiful all the time. I feel like
I'm letting her down for not being strong enough to beat this, even when I pushed her away she holds me on my bad Days. I never imagined my life would turn out this way, Stef continues to stick by me because she said she made vows on our wedding day. Through sickness and health
I told her just the other day if l go into remission l want us to renew our wedding vows, we only have been married for four years now. God truly placed an angel in my life, l cry at night. When she's sleeping sometimes I think she knows deep down inside
But l guess she's waiting on me to tell her what's wrong, l can't tell her my darkest fears. The night before last
I dreamed l died and left her and the kids, that's when I knew l need to fight to live and see our children grow up. My birthdays coming up in two months, mom and dad have been a blessing to us. Taking braylon and our daughter we needed, as l sit outside on the deck writing in my journal
in the wee hours in the morning
Babe what are you doing out here
Stef says in a groggy voice. Sorry my love l didn't mean to wake you up
Lena said in a sad tone. Baby you didn't wake me up, what's got you up at 5 in the morning mmm she asks me
I couldn't never lie to her cause she knows me like a book. I shrugged my shoulders, she comes over and sits beside me on the couch that swings back and forth. Baby please tell me what's on your mind, Stef asks in a concern tone. What if my body rejects the bone marrow and l continue on getting sicky and weaker like l am now, why did this happen to us
I feel like l'm letting you down
For not being the woman you married
Lena States with tears in her eyes.
Love l'm with you every step of the way. So don't feel like your burden me
I've chosen to be here cause your my best friend and the mother of those too beautiful children in there
I know you rather deal with this on your own. Let me carry some of the load, it's impossible for someone to do everything by themselves. I know you know this, so you can push me away all you because Lena Elizabeth Adams Foster l'm not going anywhere so you have to face it, Stef says sternly
She wraps her arms around me
I lay my head on her shoulder
We stayed here a little longer and watched the sun come. I don't have to be at the hospital till eleven, l try to soak up as much affection as possible
I lift my head up and turn around facing her and leaned in kissed her on the lips. It's been a long time since we were intimate with each other,
She lays me down on the long sofa
Stef stokes my pale face and tells me that she loves repeatedly until it sinks in my head. Do you still find me attractive even though l have loss this weight and my hair is gone honestly
Lena asked Stef, baby l think your the most beautiful woman l ever met
I know you feel insecure about losing your hair and your body has went through a lot with these treatments
I love every part of you and doesn't make you less than a woman. You've been fighting a illness so stop listening to those voices that tell you your not enough and l'm never leaving your side ever okay. Let me make love to you in our bedroom and not outside in the open, she tells me
I nod my head yes. Stef picks me up and carries me inside the house
She locks all the doors, we go upstairs to the master bedroom and she removes my clothes. I covered myself up because I don't like the way I look
Love you don't have to hide for me
Let me worship you all night Stef says to me, we begins making love to me all night love.
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The mother she never knew) fighting the battle
RomanceLena Adams Foster a devoted wife, mother of two she's always been in perfect health. until she is face with a life altering disease, that turns her world upside down. she's gonna have to rely on the strength of her family for support, the doctors ar...
