Under His Spell

2/22/22

Hello, everyone! How are you all doing?

I know, I owe you guys an explanation. I posted one on my message board, pero mukhang natabunan na 'yon. So, I'll just post it here, along with other updates.

Let's start with frequently asked questions.

Q: Babalik ka pa po ba?

I've been receiving this question everywhere, from wattpad, even up to my emails. And I'm so sorry for not responding, kahit kasi ako, hindi alam ang sagot, maging ako, hindi sigurado kung babalik pa ba ako.

For the past years, I've been facing a lot of problems, so bad I needed to see mental health professionals for help. I've had numerous psychologists, therapists, and even psychiatrists, because of my condition. It heavily affected my being, especially my passion in writing. Believe me, I tried going back, but it's hard being in a battle where your contender is yourself. That's the reason why I was hiatus for almost 2 years.

Q2: Itutuloy niyo pa po ba 'yong Twins With Benefits?

This one's hard, because there's no definite answer. I'm sorry to keep you guys waiting, but as you can see, I wrote Under His Spell when I was 14, I started writing Twins With Benefits when I was, I think, 16. I'm 20 years old now. And a lot of my beliefs were changed. I grew, so did my principles in life.

Matagal nang planado ang plot ng TWB, pero nang lumaki ako—mas nagmature—hindi na umaayon sa prinsipyo ko ang plot ng TWB. I've thought of changing the toxic parts of the plot, pero iyong part pa nga lang na kambal sila, napaka-toxic na lol. Paano ko iyon marerevise? Paano pa magiging Twins with Benefits kung hindi na sila kambal, diba?

Sa totoo nga lang, ilang beses ko na ring pinagplanuhang i-delete ang Under His Spell. Aminin na natin, may pagka-toxic naman kasi talaga itong librong 'to. Saka ko lang iyon napagtanto nang unti-unti na akong tumanda.

Again, I was 14 when I wrote UHS, I was immature, uneducated. Disclaimer, I'm not using my age as an excuse, what I'm trying point out is, nung panahon namin, hindi laganap ang mga platforms na nag-eeducate (like Tiktok). I wasn't educated well, I just write what I want. Pero ngayon, marami nang nag-iba. Na-educate ako sa mga bagay-bagay. That was one of my dilemmas why I'm contemplating to continue TWB.

Also, cancel culture. I'm scared of being cancelled because of these stories of mine. Kaya gusto ko nang burahin ang UHS, pero dalawang taon ko rin itong sinulat. Hindi iyon madali para sa akin. Kaya I'm keeping this story. Kahit ito na lang.

Q: Hindi niyo na po ba itutuloy ang Men from Hell series?

I've been thinking about this. And as a person with anxiety, I've already thought of all the reasons why I shouldn't continue Men from Hell series... but I will. Dark Aris Vergara's story will be posted this week—The Psychiatrist's Insanity.

It wouldn't be as toxic as TWB, kaya I guess it's manageable. I hope you guys support that as well ^^

I also have an on-going story, which is in the genre of fantasy. 18 chapters pa lang ang posted, pero tapos ko na ang drafts no'n. Ine-edit ko na lang kaya hindi naman makakasagabal sa pagsulat ko sa story ni Dark.

Ayun lang naman, if you guys have more questions, just comment it down and I'll try my best to answer it all.

Thank you my loves. May we all heal from things we don't talk about. I love you all <3

P.S.: I don't have any social media accounts. Anyone claiming to be me is not legitimate.