BROKEN

Thirty

T/W- ASSAULT AND RAPE.

I peeked out the window and saw him parked outside.
"What are you doing here Ivan ?"
"I don't know, I don't know why, I have no control of my limbs nor mind when it comes to you"
I gasped softly and before I get a word in "you know what forget it lotus, I am leaving ."
"Wait..." I couldn't finish my statement before he ended the call, I rushed downstairs and frantically opened the door, but his car was nowhere in sight. My mood instantly dropped, I softly closed the door and dragged myself back to bed. Ivan causes my heart to go supernova all the time, his actions and words are always wrapped in a chaotic mysterious way, it almost as if his heart and mind are at war just like mine. I took a deep breath and dialed his number again and again but he wouldn't pick up, he was back to ignoring me as always.

I shook my head tiredly not wanting to go into the enigma that is Ivan vikor, but my treacherous heart wouldn't stop reminding of those words he said to me, he sounded genuinely frustrated, he made it seem as though I was the cause and solution to his troubles. I Steeled my heart and mind that tomorrow I would find him and demand answers. Nothing was going to make me waver tomorrow, not even his citrine eyes that once they locked to mine, I would forget how to breathe, not even his smoky and very distracting scent was going to throw me off my game tomorrow. I closed my eyes mentally preparing my self for the mission I am embarking tomorrow, I needed answers and I am going to get them no matter what.

I woke up before the sound of my alarm, I was inflated with determination and the need to find answers was my greatest motivation. I did all my morning routines before donning on my uniform and marching downstairs. I was browsing through the fridge looking for something edible when I felt someone lightly graze my thighs, I stood up right and my back collided with devan's body. I felt him steady me from falling down but his hands lingered on my waist and hip, I pushed his hands off me, grabbed my bag before running out of the house.

I forgot my lunch because of mom's very handsy boyfriend, I pushed the very awkward encounter to the back of my mind, I still needed those answers from Ivan, I was not going to allow devan to ruin that for me, I walked to school like a woman on a mission, I made up several scenarios of how things might go
I was mentally preparing my self for rejection and embarrassment, I was getting nervous with each step I took into the school compound, Malvolio's car and keiran's bike were already parked I could see them standing at the schools entrance. I walked up to them while scanning for a sign of Ivan's jeep wrangler or cherokee or his koenigsegg but I couldn't find it, maybe he brought another car. Kieran noticed me looking and scanning the whole school "looking for something " he questioned with his perfectly groomed eyebrow raised
"More like someone " I answered
" I suppose his name starts with an I" keiran grinned.
"I smell romance brewing lulu " I looked at my friend blankly
"Maybe you're having a stroke, but yes I am looking for Ivan" I turned to Malvolio "have you seen him"
He shook his head No, I walked to class in the hopes to see him but the whole school day passed without a sign of Ivan.

I really hated this day, the very day i wanted to find answers to the question i was looking for, the enigma didn't come. I dialed his number over and over again, I gave up from calling him when keiran dropped me off at home. I walked into the house, no-one was home, I took my clothes off and freshened up before changing into sweatpants and a large shirt before walking downstairs with a sock clad feet, I grabbed a bag of pretzels and sat in the living room watching TV. I checked my phone once again, checking if Ivan had called or texted.
My heart was shattering in my chest, I knew he saw my texts and calls but ignored them, a tear had slipped from eyes, I started crying again. I was full blown crying , my head was spinning and black spots were clouding my vision. I succumbed finally to the arms of unconsciousness.

I felt my shirt being lifted up and a finger lightly tracing my scarred skin and raising my shirt higher, I felt a light kiss being pressed on my stomach, I immediately snapped my eyes open immediately to see devan kneeling down beside the couch harassing me
He had already raised my shirt enough that you could see my bra. I tried pushing him of me "What are you doing" I said struggling to push him off me. He pinned my hands behind me and continued his assault on my body, he started leaving sloppy kisses on my body
I struggled and squirmed under him but he was powerful, I continued to struggle but he was getting aggressive, he started unbuckling his belt and I took this as an opportunity to push him off, I pushed him as hard as I could and he fell down on the floor I took this as an opportunity to run away but he pulled me back my hair and I fell to the floor , he smacked my face so hard, that my head whipped to the side, I felt hot blood fill the insides of my mouth, the slap was going to leave a mark but I could care less
I coughed out blood in attempt to talk "please stop' he gripped my throat tightly, his hands restricted my air flow, I was afraid of passing out because then he could have his way with me.
I just laid there lifelessly while he continued to kiss my neck, "it would be over soon, don't fight it." I heard the sick bastard say. I was praying to God to save me. I was sobbing when I heard the sound of the zipper. I took this an opportunity to knee him in the balls, he groaned and smacked me over and over again, I was bleeding from the intensity of his hits.

I kicked him once again and pushed him off me, he tried pulling me back but I swatted his hand and crawled upstairs, I entered my room and locked it, I shakily grabbed my phone dialing the first number I saw Ivan, but it went straight to voicemail " Ivan, please help Me, help me" I was choking on the the blood in my mouth, I was a sputtering mess of blood on the floor "LOTUS OPEN THIS DOOR NOW" devan yelled. I yelped and continued speaking to Ivan voice mail "Ivan help me ' I heard the door shake, devan was trying to break it down
I ended the call and dialed keiran "Whitehead "
"Help me, keiran, help me "  my phone fell down and broke and I scrambled to my window sill just intime for the door to crash down and devan looking like a king from hell.

A/N

RAPE IS SOMETHING THAT WE DONT TALK ABOUT BUT WE SHOULD.

IF THIS CHAPTER OFFENDED YOU I APOLOGISE. 😢 😭

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