The Possessive Psychopath

Chapter 16

Chapter 16: The Cold Night Part II

Victoria Abbel's Point of View

They say, that life is worth a shot but I say otherwise. Our life has no intrinsic meaning. And yes, humans are insignificant. Natatawa na lang ako ng pagak sa sarili ko habang iniisip ko ang dating ako. Na walang araw hindi nilulubayan si Trevor. I thought that was my life's purpose – to be with Trevor and make him happy in a way that I know. Pero dahil sa kabaliwan ko sa kanya, instead of pulling him to me, I drove him away. My life... has been getting simple and simple and simple... until it gets to nothing.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla na lang itong pumasok sa isip ko habang naglalakad si Trevor palapit sa akin. He's wearing a maroon hoodie and blue jeans. When I looked at his eyes, I know how tired he is. What is tiring him? Lumabas si Trevor na may hawak na beer in can, boring his eyes on me. His lips pull into a half-moon of a smile. Fuck! I don't think he smiled like that at me for the years I've known him. Lagi na lang kasi itong nakakunot ang noo at nakasimangot sa tuwing tumitingin sa akin. He's literally scowling at me but now... he's fucking smiling. I don't know if he's smiling at me or it's just that there is something funny inside his head and so he's smiling. Either way, it made me feel giddy. Trevor must be older than me which made him completely unattainable and unavailable. I always find myself staring at his smirky kind of mouth and owning it. I want to own his lips. That's the kind of vibe he's giving me. Even after all these years, I don't know what his lips taste like. Sana all na lang kay Georginna.

"Hey," bati ko sa kanya nang umupo ito sa tabi ko, isang talampakan lang ang layo namin sa isa't isa. When he looked at me with those dazzling eyes, my hands started to sweat. Remembering my old teen self, I should have thrown myself to him now. Pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko, dahil masyado na akong nahihiya sa pinagagawa ko.

"What are you doing here all alone?" His voice was low, almost magical. Bakas pa rin sa mukha ko ang pagka gulat. Is he insane? Bakit niya ako kinakausap. I thought we had already established the fact that I am just a kid and I don't deserve to be near him. He stares at me and I stared back. But the kind of stare he is giving me is blank. Okay, si Trevor pa rin talaga ang kausap ko.

"Nothing, just want to drink my beer in peace." Sambit ko at umiwas ng tingin. Napansin ko rin na tumingala siya at tumingin sa kwarto na ginagamit niya. Ilang segundo siyang nakatitig don bago niya binuksan ang hawak niyang beer at tumingin sa madilim na kaulapan. I didn't dare to move from my place. Afraid that he will vanish before I knew it. Sana naman ay hindi niya narinig ang pagtatalo namin ng mga kapatid ko.

"This place is nice." He commented while drinking his beer, draining it in half. Nilibot ko naman ang buong paningin ko sa buong lugar. He's right. The front yard is nice. Lalo na at may mga naka kabit na mga ilaw dito, may mga tables, at sofa na pwedeng higaan.

"We used to have our barbecue party in here." Bigla ko na lang sinabi sa kanya.

"Anyway, ano naman ang nasa isipan mo at bakit ka bumaba dito?" I said. That was supposed to be a joke, but the way I said those words was in a harsher tone. Oh my! That was not what I intended to do. Siguro ay hindi pa rin mawala sa loob ko ang pagka-irita ko sa aking mga kapatid. I saw how he clenched his jaw and narrow his eyes on me.

"You know why?"

"Why?"

"You look so miserable to the point I want to join you." Natahimik kaming dalawa sa sinabi niya. I looked down at my flip-flops sandals and think. It takes me a second to process what he'd told me.

Bigla akong tumawa nang malakas. I burst out laughing until my throat feel sore. I take another gulp of my beer. He raises an eyebrow at me. Siguro ay hindi niya inaasahan ang magiging reaksiyon ko. Ano ba ang akala niya? Iiyak na lang ako? Miserable? Me? He gotta be kidding me.