The Possessive Psychopath

Chapter 11

Chapter 11: The Dinner

Victoria Abbel's Point of View

Nagulat ako nang biglang may kumatok sa pinto. I get all the notes scattered on my bed and hid them under the pillow. I even hid the remaining crumpled paper under my bed by kicking them.

"Bakit?" Sabi ko agad nang mabuksan ko ang aking pinto.

"I mean, why?" I said when I saw Carla in front of my door. Nagulat kasi ito dahil sa aking pagtatagalog.

"I'm going home, now. The dinner is served, eat when you feel it. I also got my salary today, thank you." She said. Tumango lang ako sa kanya at hinintay na siya ay umalis. I just really wanted to decipher the codes right now, na mula sa mga scratched paper ni Trevor. I felt like I'm invading his privacy but I'm Tori Abbel. I am always curious and I always find a way to satisfy my curiosity.

Pagkatapos umalis ni Carla ay lumabas na rin ako to have dinner. Pero pababa pa lang ako ng hadgan, I saw Trevor across the room and met his eyes. Hindi pa rin ako nasasanay na dito na nakatira si Trevor. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong ginagawa niya dito.

"Where are you going?" Ito agad ang natanong ko nang mapansin kong nakatingin din siya sa akin.

"None of your concern." Act cool Tori. He's Trevor after all.

"Let's go Trevor. The gang is already waiting." Bigla na lang nagpakita si Nikos na nakaayos rin ang suot. Looks like they are going out tonight. Trevor walks towards Nikos. Hindi na rin siya lumingon sa gawi ko. Napairap na lang ako sa hangin. Ha! Trevor will always be Trevor. He acts like I don't exist in his world. What a cold hearted man, he is! Hindi na naman siya lugi sa akin kung ako ang magiging girlfriend niya. Napaka choosy na tao, hmp!

I slapped my face from what I am thinking. Oo nga pala, Trevor free na ako. I should move on from him. He's no good to me. All those heartaches that he gives, he doesn't have any right to stay in my life. Malungkot akong naglakad papunta sa kusina and eat alone. I don't know where Damien is, or Clevon for that matter. And Cainn must be in hell now. May naabutan akong Caesar salad na nakahain sa lamesa at pasta.

"No rice?" Bulong ko sa sarili ko at tiningna ang laman ng rice cooker. Well, fuck! Gusto ko pa naman sana kumain ng kanin ngayon pero I think this is enough for one person. While eating the Caesar salad, hindi ko maiwasan na isipin na parang may kailangan akong gawin. My mind is not at ease, para bang may nakakalimutan ako. What am I missing here?

Crap. Bulong ko sa sarili ko. I really hate eating alone. This whole place is a mess. Pinagmasdan ko ang buong paligid ko. Nanaig ang katahimikan. The only thing that you can hear is the noise inside your head.

After dinner. I went to my mother's room who was sleeping unsoundly in her bed, took two pills, and left. This becomes a routine of mine. My mother really looks pitiful. Why does she have to be like that? Isn't it easy if she moves forward in her life and takes care of her children? I'm aware that we're no longer kids but we need our mother.

When I get back from my own room, I leaned to my door. Unti-unti akong umupo sa sahig at sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang aking kamay.

I am one week suspended. Napahilamos na lang ako ng aking mukha. I don't want to stay in this place and I don't want to stay at the university either. Should I start looking for a place of my own? No, Damien won't allow me. Walang magtitingin sa kalagayan ng nanay ko.

"Now what?" I whispered to the night air and stared at my empty room. There are still a lot of scratch papers scattered around the room. Mga nakolekta kong kalat ay hanggang ngayon ay nasa akin pa rin. Tumayo ako at inayos ang mga kalat sa aking kama. All the weird notes that came from Trevor are scaring the shit out of me. I don't want to throw this away so I decided to keep all the notes.