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Chapter 65: Just Follow Your Heart

In the past 300 years…..

I have seen beggars that have frozen to death in caves…..

I have seen unlucky people killed by bandits and their bodies thrown into the river…..

I have seen thin and bony children starved to the point of eating tree roots…..

All of this, in the past, I wouldn’t feel anything wrong with it, and even stand next to them and smile while watching them suffer and die.

But today, I felt that there was something terribly wrong.

In my heart, there was discomfort…..

I did not continue to pursue the matter with Diu Diu. We all silently turned around and left Fish Gut Alley, and finally arrived at the edge of the forest. I did not want to return to the cave where Jian Nan lived, so I sat down next to a creek and watched as the water flowed into the distance. It was very quiet, only the sound of the water and the sound of the wind could be heard, and as I watched a petal of an apricot flower fall on me, everything seemed very beautiful.

In this beautiful forest, it was full of slaughter and hunting. The weak and elderly getting eliminated first is all a part of nature and animal instincts. In many cases, these animals would be driven out from the group and banished, just like how Yin Zi was kicked out by the crows.

Forgetting how much time has passed, I leisurely reminisce about the past and about Yin Zi. I once asked if he had always been at Luoying Mountain, and why was it that no crows came to play with him? Also, I had asked why he was a different colour than the other crows. White feathers were really pretty.

“Beautiful?” I did not know what it was that he had remembered, but he suddenly let out a very cheerful smile, and with a sarcastic tone, he said, “Of course! White feathers show that I am one of a kind, and that I’m different from the other crows.”

“What is one of a kind?” I did not know what he meant.

Yin Zi instead asked me, “If a male calico cat* appeared in your species, how would you deal with him?”

*[TN]: From Wikipedia: Because genetic determination of some coat colors in cats is linked to the X chromosome, calicoes are nearly always female. Because of the genetics involved, calico males are rare, and generally have impaired vitality and are almost always sterile.

I replied to him without even thinking, “Of course we would ignore him! Male calico cats are useless, their bodies are weak, and we don’t like them!”

“Exactly~” Yin Zi shrugged, “It’s exactly like that.”

“Are you also neither male nor female?” I was surprised.

“Nonsense!” Yin Zi was furious, “I am male! Not a male calico! I’m just using it as a metaphorical comparison! A metaphor!”

At that time, I didn’t quite understand his meaning, and wanted to continue asking, but he had already ran back to his treasure house to rub his gem stones and paid no further attention to me.

Now that I think about it…..Yin Zi should be like a male calico cat, banished and driven out by his family and clan…..

Animals weeding out the weak and humans eliminating the weak, isn’t it all the same? Why I am I troubling myself thinking about this…..is it because I thought of Yin Zi?

If it was Yin Zi…..although he was pretty useless and weak, I wouldn’t ever ignore or abandon him…..but the strange thing was that I also did not want to leave Diu Diu alone…..

What is this kind of feeling? I really did not understand…..

Right now, Jian Nan and Luo Luo were happily lighting a fire for cooking. While they lit the fire, they had also continued to comfort Shao Zhong and I, saying that if one was to see this kind of thing often, you would become use to it. If one was to get involved with each and every one, in the mortal realm, there was simply too much tragic events, and you would never be able to accomplish anything. And that it was best to just live your life to the fullest.