Inevitable

41. Unrecognizable 🪞

(Mattheos Pov)
I've destroyed everything in my dorm. I drank bottles of alcohol because I couldn't stand the feeling of being sober. My eyes had dark circles from weed. I looked in the mirror and didn't recognize the guy staring back at me.

I was unrecognizable.

I hurt Sierra.
In both a mental and physical way. My boggart came true. I've officially hurt every single one of my friends except Pansy. I haven't talked to anyone since the punch. I completely isolated myself.
I'll never forgive myself. My heart breaks knowing I caused her to bleed like that. The look on her face was heart wrenching.

At the end of the day she's just a girl.
I was so rough with her. The punch was meant for Draco but I missed. This is what I get for losing my temper.

Sierras so soft and delicate, and i've always been so rough and aggressive.

It's Draco she needs.
Dracos acts tough but has a soft side.
He's not delicate though, he's numb.

That's what happens after living the lives we've lived.

Sierra can heal that.

We spent two weeks living together in my dorm and she helped my numbness. I was doing better for a good amount of time but that's gone now.

I know Draco's better for her. They understand each other better. Their connection is much deeper then the connection Sierra and I had.
But she's more uptight around Draco.
She lets loose around me in ways she can't with him.

She gets glares from him just by looking at other men. Sierra doesn't like being treated like an object. She hates possessiveness.
That's why she's calmer with me, she knew I was okay with her doing whatever she wanted.

We had lots of trust in each other which was something her and Draco didn't have.

I changed my mind. 
Draco wasn't who she needed.
No guy deserves her.

(Sierras Pov)
I woke up the next morning sore. I also had that same nauseous feeling in my stomach I had before. I stood up and tried to walk to the washroom but because my legs were sore. I didn't make it all the way and threw up all over the floor.

"Shit."
Draco walked over rubbing his eyes still half asleep and stared at me.
"Sierra what happened?"

I pointed at the toilet and he picked me up and brought me over. I grabbed the sides of the toilet and threw up again. Draco grabbed my hair and roughly patted my back trying to help me.

I finished throwing up and sat on the floor.
Draco picked me up to rinse my mouth and held me.

"What was that all about love?"
"I don't know Draco, this is the second day in a row it's happened."
He rubbed my back and kissed my cheek.
"That's alright darling we'll get it sorted."

I stared at our reflection. His shirt was off and he had his arms around me holding me up.
"Look how fucking beautiful you are." He said kissing my cheek.
I blushed.
He rubbed my face and let me go.

We got ready and headed to the great hall.
"Your face healed perfectly!" Said Luna.
"Luna I can't thank you enough for this."
"Listen we're gonna talk to Mattheo the second he lets us in his dorm." Said Theo.

"Wait what do you mean let's you in his dorm?"
"We've been knocking on his dorm all day. He's been ignoring us." Said Lorenzo.

I know I should be furious with Mattheo but I also know that it's hurting him more then it hurt me.

"What are you gonna do when he lets you in?"
"We're gonna tell him off." Said Pansy.
"Maybe it's better you didn't." I said.
"Your joking right?" Said Draco.
"Mattheos already dealing with enough let's not make him feel terrible about himself." I said.