Inevitable

58. "Show Me"😐

Authors Note:
The second paragraph in this chapter has another self harm trigger warning.

(Sierras Pov)
I haven't spoken to Draco in two days and I think it's about time but.

I went back outside and cut myself again.
Just incase things went wrong between us.
Atleast I have something else causing me more pain. I didn't cut my arms this time, that's too risky. I cut my thighs because the only way anyone could see that is if I take my pants off.

I went to the common room and as usual the gang was there. I sat next to Mattheo and whispered in his ear.

"I'm gonna talk to him today, not sure when."
He nodded at me.

I nervously shook my legs which was the biggest mistake I could have made.

Mattheo subconsciously grabbed my thigh.

"OW." I winced.
"I barely touched you." Said Mattheo.

I tried holding it in but I heavily started breathing and groaned in pain.
The cuts were fresh so it fucking hurt.

I looked up and saw everyone's eyes on me, including Draco.

"What happened Sierra?" Asked Theo.
"I'm fine." I said struggling to speak.

They continued talking but Mattheo kept looking at me.

"Did I really hurt you that much?" He asked.
"No no don't worry it's my fault." I said.

I looked at Draco and he was staring at me.
He knew something was wrong.

"What did you do to yourself?" Said Draco.

I ignored it and looked away.
He stood up and walked towards me.

He said grabbed my arm and apparated us to his dorm.
He shut the door and looked at me.

"Show me." He said.
"Show you what?" I said back.
"Don't fucking play dumb right now."

"Aren't you still mad about what I said?"
"I don't give a shit about it right now just fucking show me." He yelled.
I stayed silent.

"Don't make me undress you just show me."
He said.
"I literally have no idea what your talking about.

He sighed. He kneeled in front of me and put his hands on the waistline of my pants.

"I don't have to do this just admit you've been hurting yourself." He said.
"Draco I haven't."

He slowly pulled down my pants and I watched as his face dropped.

"Jesus Sierra what happened?" He said.
I winced as he ran his fingers along my cuts.
"It doesn't matter." I said.

He sat on the bed and rubbed his head with his hands.

"Is this my fault? Is it something I said?
Because I would never forgive myself if- "
"No it's my own fault Draco."

I sat next to him and watched as he dug his face in his hands.

"Fucking hell Sierra. Those are deep." He said as he stared at my thighs.
"That's kind of the point." I said.

He took a deep breath in then looked at me.
"Why- why are you doing this."

It took everything in me not to cry.

"Because I fucking hate myself and if I keep causing pain for everyone around me I deserve to be in pain too." I said.

He sighed.
"If this is about what you said to me just forget it I forgive you." He said.

"I can't just forget it Draco. It was rude and I didn't mean it. Of course things weren't perfect when you were gone. Everyday I missed you more and more."