Sunshine On His Rainy Days (Complete)

Kabanata 33

Hindi pa man ako tuluyang nakakarating sa mismong kotse nang maramdaman ko ang marahas na paghila sa akin ni Gabriel sa braso ko.

I turn around and glance at him through my blurry vision. His eyes are dark and brutal. They are silently asking a silent question that only me could answer. 

But instead of saying anything, I can only let these tears pour out of my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Luke." My voice trembles.

"What did you say back there, Angelique? I don't understand," He shakes his head, brows furrowed in a strict line. "What do you mean you had a c-child?"

Hindi sa ganitong paraan niya dapat malaman ang tungkol kay Atticus. But what Hanniel said earlier triggered and awaken all the painful emotions sleeping in my heart for the past years.

Ang hirap para sa akin ang umaktong baliwala lang sa akin ang mga sinabi niya. Ayaw kong patulan. Hindi ko ginawa. Pero hindi ibig sabihin ay hindi ako nasaktan.

My Atticus will always be my trigger no matter what.

"Give me your keys." I said through my cracked voice.

The lines between his brows grew deep.

"Why?"

"Please, Luke."

Mas lalong bumalatay ang pagtataka sa mukha niya. Sa kabila no'n ay kinuha niya pa rin ang susi na nakasabit sa pantalon niya at walang salita itong iniabot sa akin.

I took it and turned my back away from him. Nanghihina man ang mga tuhod, sinikap kong tuntunin ang daan patungong sasakyan niya.

I pressed the key fob. Tumunog ang alarm ng kotse niya at kaagad kong binuksan ang pinto ng driver's seat. Sumakay ako roon at binuhay ang makina ng sasakyan.

I closed the door and glanced at Gabriel who's still standing on the ground. Kahit na sarado na ang pintuan ko ay nakatingin pa rin siya sa gawi ko na para bang nakikita niya ako.

Ilang sandali pa nang tumungo siya, huminga nang malalim at muling tumingin sa direskyon ko. He soon then starts to amble towards the other side of the car and open the door of the passenger side.

I avoided his heavy stare.

I know he has a lot of questions for me. About what really is happening and I won't have any choice but to tell him the truth.

He will get mad at me - I am sure about that. Tatanggapin ko ang galit niya sa akin dahil malaki ang naging kasalanan ko sa kaniya. I hid the truth about my pregnancy. I was scared he would shut me down if I tell him about Atticus that very moment. Malaki ang galit niya sa akin noong mga panahon na 'yon at duda akong babalikan niya ako kahit na para sa bata.

He was silent throughout the whole ride. Ipinagpapasalamat ko 'yon dahil kung nagkataon na pinilit niya akong sabihin sa kaniya ang totoo ay siguradong kakainin ako ng matinding emosyon ko at hindi makakapag maneho nang maayos.

My heart throbbed against my chest when I pulled the car in front of the cemetery.

"What are we doing here?" he asked while looking at the main place.

The engine died. I breathe out a shaky stream of air before my lungs gasp to fill again.

"Let's go-"

"What is this, Angelique?" He turned his head to me, his brutal eyes were making me shiver deep down my spine.

He doesn't look mad. Not yet at least. But his expression looks like it carries the weight of thunderclouds. Of molten lava and the armageddon.

"Just please go down, Luke."