I've been hanging out with Eleanor because she's sick, but she's acting kind of. Strange. I could swear she likes me. It's probably all in my head. But maybe it's not. Then again what if I'm just a replacement until she gets back with Livi? A "second choice"? I don't want that. I'm crossing so many lines and I'm scared. For so many reasons. I can't let my guard down any more. I need to get a grip. What if Livi finds out? She's a god. She could kill me if she wanted. Just like that. She could even make it look like an accident or a suicide and no one would ever know.
I'm terrified.
