They started dating again. I've always been a very jealous person. I'll admit that. I remember when Will started dating Nico. I never heard the end of how much he loved him. I never did understand what he saw in him. Nico was pretty quiet, which Will was always complaining about. Half the time they drove each other crazy. I didn't understand it but I loved Will so I tried not to judge their relationship. You know how that went.
But anyway. Livi and Eleanor. It's a different kind of hurt than I've ever experienced. Eleanor pulled me in closer and closer and I was letting my guard down more and more. I'd give anything and do anything for another chance. She's all I can think about, day in and day out.
I hate myself for only caring about this when so many other things are going on but that's where my mind is. I'll be good enough for Eleanor even if it takes me my whole life. If I'm pretty enough or if I changed something or if I changed everything maybe then they will like me more. I knew what would happen and I let it happen anyway.
My heart hurts so so so much.
