Lost In The Weather (Lusiento High Series 01)

CHAPTER 20

CHAPTER 20 | Thanks |

“Yijin, I like you.” There, I finally said it. I finally confessed. I finally lay all my cards and set aside my doubts.

This is the answer to my prayer, that I should do this tonight. I am a servant, and I have my master. It says there that, he that waiteth on his master shall be honoured.

I am waiting for Him, for His answer, for His guidance. I always believed that God has plans for me, there are things that I can’t understand right now but soon enough I will come to know why does it happened. All I have to do is to learn and let the time pass by for me to know about it.

I am waiting for His direction, I am always following His will. If Yijin is His will for me, then I’ll be really grateful and honor. But if not, then it’s fine. I’ll just treasure this experience of having butterflies on my stomach.

Now, confessing to Yijin doesn’t mean I know now His well. Only in the perfect time I’ll know it. Right now, I still don’t know if Yijin is for me.

This confession doesn’t mean I have to have him. I just want to tell him the truth because I don’t want to lie to myself anymore, I don’t want to deny it to Yijin.

Ilang beses ko nang itinanggi ’to sa sarili ko simula noong una ko ’tong naramdaman sa kanya. Ayaw ko nang tumanggi ngayon.

Yijin’s lips opened. Tila may gusto siyang sabihin pero hindi niya maisatinig dahil sa gulat.

Katahimikan ang bumalot sa ’ming dalawa habang nagkakatitigan kami. My heart started to beat faster, kung pwede akong kainin ng lupa sana gawin niya.

Something is palpitating inside me, kung tatagal pa ’to bala mahimatay na ’ko.

“Chantal,” Yijin called me and he smiled at me. “Thank you, I really appreciate it. Y-you’re a wonderful person and I can’t believe you’re telling this to me now. I d-don’t know, I felt honored. Thank you.”

“NAG-CONFESS ka kay Yijin!” Seri shouted. Agad naman akong napatakip sa aking mukha. Kahit naka-video call lang kaming tatlo nahihiya pa rin ako. I can’t believe it! Mag-confess talaga ako? Nasabi ko talaga ’yon?

Ngayong nawala na ang tapang ko ay nahihiya na ’ko. I don’t regret telling it pero kinikilig ako na nahihiya tuwing naaalala ko na nasabi ko na sa kanya.

“Oo nga!” ani ko sa kanila. Agad namang nagtilhian sina Seri at Chloe.

“Paano nangyari? Paano mo sinabi? Ano’ng response niya?” sunod-sunod na tanong ni Chloe. Kaya kahit na pagod pa ako sa debut ko ay hindi ako dinalaw ng antok dahil sa kilig ko. I told them what happened kaya para kaming mga tanga na nagtitilhian sa video call.

I feel light and happy inside. Masaya kasi wala na akong itinatago sa kanya, nasabi ko na ang nararamdaman ko kaya alam na niya ang totoo.

Nasampal ko na lang ang sarili nang ma-realize ko na nakangiti na naman ako. Para na ’kong baliw!

I dived on my bed after the video call. I hugged my pillow and buried my face there. I need to shout at baka sakaling lumabas ang nagkukulitan na mga paru-paru sa tiyan ko.

After my debut, of course! Everything is back to normal na naman. Like the usual, school-bahay ang naging routine ko kapag weekdays. Kapag weekend naman, nasa church ako.

We have an activity today at our church, kumpara rati. . . aaminin kong mas matagal akong nag-ayos ngayon. I’m going to see Yijin for the first time after I confessed to him!