JJ Maybank imagines

scared to be happy

scared to be happy: after lilly tries thanking jj for saving her she admits he loves him, he's left to sort out his emotions before he loses her for good.
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Instead of using 'Y/n' I will be using the name Lilly for this one! (name given in request)
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this was requested<3
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this is a long one! nearly 3,000 words, i hope no one minds :) also, if i accidentally used 'y/n' instead of 'Lilly' anywhere please comment so I can fix it! It's hard for my brain to remember where I'm writing sometimes
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JJ's hand was gripping the steering wheel of my Jeep Wrangler as the pogues crammed in the back seat, we were currently on our way to the beach for some much needed sun.

"I hate kooks, but I love driving this thing." JJ smiled as his hair was being blown around by the wind. My hand was out the window tracing the wind, "Tell your parents I want one for Christmas."

"I'll get right on that," I joked as I spun around to talk to the group, "We should stop and get beer."

Kiara reached down and patted the top of her cooler, "Already packed, I brought waters too so none of us get dehydrated."

"You're giving serious mom vibes, Kie." John B teased and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, pulling her into his chest and ruffling her hair with his hand. She pushed his arm away and swatted him in the chest.

"We're crammed like sardines, are we almost there?" Pope groaned as he was shoved further into the door. I felt my Jeep slow and realized we were pulling into the beach, "Guess that answers my question."

"Beach day! Beach day! Beach day!" Sarah began chanting with her fists in the air. It's been awhile since we all got to hang out since we were busy working, Pope and I were also taking summer classes to get ahead in academics for next school year.

"We have arrived," JJ threw the vehicle in park and opened his door to get out. I looked down and made sure everything I needed was in my bag while everyone else got out, "M'lady." The blonde said while opening my door and offering a hand out.

"Why thank you kind sir." I did a courtesy as the door shut behind me. Talking in british accents was one of the many things JJ and I found ourselves doing, we've been best friends since forever. Even with me being born a kook he was the first to accept me as a pogue. Another reason why below the surface I was completely infatuated with him. That, of course, was a deep dark secret of mine I kept locked away.

"Uh, guys." Kie said, catching our attention as we rounded the front of my Jeep, "this place is crawling with kooks."

"So?" John B asked and began nudging us all forward. It wasn't just a few kooks here and there, they were everywhere like fleas. I saw Rafe and Topper by the surf shop and the sight of them made my skin crawl.

JJ instinctively stepped in front of me, "Stay behind me." He said quietly and I nodded my head. Although he wasn't the most affectionate, he always made sure I was okay, "Pope," JJ whistled and caught his attention then pointed behind me, gesturing for him to keep me in the middle as we walked. Sarah and Kie stayed tight on my left side and to the left of them was John B.

"Lookin' good, Kie, Lilly," Rafe flirted and I rolled my eyes in disgust.

"Get a life, Rafe." Sarah snapped at her brother as we kept walking, "I swear he's obsessed with you two."

"That's...disturbing," John B added.

Our journey down the beach ended when we found an open area for us to lay our towels. Once we were all situated I slipped a bottle of a mixed drink from my bag and took a swig, offering it up to my friends next, "What is it?" JJ questioned while swirling the bottle and smelling the contents, "Vodka?"