World vs me

My Goodbye

I wrote a letter to you but I burned it because I knew I shouldn't have explained myself. I wrote all my feelings down but it still feels like its bottled up. Im tired of the same of "love" story that ends up happening between me and someone else. Im tired of doing so much for other people that don't even look deep enough inside me to see who I really am. I may be lost but you didn't have to use that against me. I don't know how i feel about life anymore. And every time i read this, i don't want to end up crying. I don't want to open up my wounds for anyone else. People may think that my smile means i'm not bothered or that I'm not aware, but i smile so i don't make anyone else uncomfortable. It's not my job to give you comfort anymore. Its not my job to make sure you don't fall down again. Its not my job to push you to keep going. My job is to do those things for myself. I fall apart more and more each time i hear your name. Wondering what you meant when you said you didn't care. Did you really not care? Or was that just a facade? I can't spend the rest of my life trying to figure that out. All i can say is goodbye.