World vs me

Time Is Going By

I have developed a fear of getting older. I don't know why this fear is here but it's driving me crazy. I just wish i could stay 18 forever. I am really trying to understand what the average person is supposed to do with their age. And i always become worried that i'm never going to figure that out. The world I'm in isn't for me, the things i see are things i don't want to see. And in my opinion, nobody knows who they really are. Its all about the clothes and the hair. The attention and the amount of love you get. Its all a game that we are all playing. But without it, what would life be like? The only way i'll ever realize my self worth, is if i stop caring about how you see me. I craved all of you. But you showed me age doesn't show levels of maturity, it only shows how long you've been alive. Things don't seem so bad when you tell me that I'm young and beautiful. That compliment means alot to me. I guess i have to hold on to it.