Laying here with no motivation. Everyday is just another excuse. But yesterday i found out something interesting. And by tomorrow, i'll forget. This new me feels a lot like the old me. How do i even know that I'm making progress? I try to change completely but i always reset to my old ways. A new passion has arisen. A new door has opened, but I'm too scared to walk through it. I hate asking for things so i just stay silent. I still don't know what i have left to give. Just another reason to keep going. But yes, I'm still in school. And yes, I'm still writing. I can't hold nothing in anymore. Eventually time will go on, and I'm afraid i will have nothing. Looking up in the sky only depending on a miracle. My fear is what holds me back. Over and over agin i am telling my self i am not okay. Im not even close to it. If i dive in again, i might not resurface. The only thing is faith. This whole life thing is just a big circle. The days keep resetting. But my love for you never fades, not even a little bit. And i don't know why i love you. I let somebody else in knowing that I should be running away from them. I can't hurt anyone else. So i reset my feelings. I reset my emotions. I can't believe in a love story when nothing about it is real. I just wish i was certain. I wish I wasn't so naive. I wish i could just have things go my way. In my mind, I deserve it.
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World vs me
Krótkie OpowiadaniaThis is brief but this is the most thorough. As i grow into new beginnings and new paths, I always come across problems that seem like they are stuck with me for eternity.
