爱ロック ‹3 ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʟᴏᴄᴋ || blue lock x fem!reader

꒰ chap 38 ꒱

False Confession

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"You guys.." I started to speak as Chigiri knelt down in front of me. "We were just heading to our shared break room and saw you, what's wrong?" Chigiri asked as i quickly turned my head around to wipe off my tears. "It's nothing, don't worry!" I then stood up and brushed off my skirt. "Umm.. Did you guys find an opponent team yet?" I asked, trying to change the subject. The three looked at each other and nodded. "Isagi, Nagi and Barou." Kunigami spoke. "Nagi...." I heard an irritated whisper. We all know who that is. "I see, tomorrow morning?" I asked with a head tilt. "Yes, 9:30 am sharp." Chigiri replied, "wanna come watch?" I gave a closed eye smile, "of course!"

¡! timeskip

I stood outside of my room as i reached to scan my id shakily. Do i even have the nerve to face him? What is he doing in my room right now? Or did he already leave? No, he said he'll spend the night! Perhaps he'll be asleep by now? I did spend quite a while outside.. It'll be better if he's asleep. I'm so nervous.. But for what reason? It's ok y/n! You've came so far! You.. You've done worst too. I.. I've done worst..?

I remember now. A clown looking man, yet he's handsome. I remember him from 2 years ago. I was 14, it was when we first moved away to my new school, i met him. He was.. A tease. I always thought he hated me because he would always make fun of me. But i remember our accidental confession. This brings me back 2 years ago.

¡! timeskip ,, 2 years ago

Which one was his locker again..? I looked at the boys locker, trying to find out which one was Rarumine's. Rarumine Seiji, my middle school crush. He's like an idol at our school. Almost every girl has a crush on him, from freshman to senior. He's probably the reason all the girls were enrolling into our school. I mean, who wouldn't fall for such beauty?! Those messy, yet neat raven hair and ocean blue eyes that reminds me of the clear blue sky i love so much. How could i not get lost while staring at them? His clear skin, body shape and height is also just perfect. He looks like a model, fresh out of a magazine. From just a simple 'hi' i could get a blood nose. From his dearing smile, i could faint. I have to admit, i really, truly, am a simp for him. 

I've had a crush on him for a few months, i heard he rejected every single girl that asked him out so far. So, it makes me scared. I'm scared i'll get rejected too. But luckily, Ophelia was there to suggest a olden way method, love letters. It's way out of our year, but it's romantic. It took me a lot of effort and time to make this love letter, i really did take a month just to write those simple words! On the letter, it prints :

"hey, this may be long..
but please do read it through.
there's so much I need to tell you
and at this point it doesn't matter if you're here to listen or not
so i'll start off with the heaviest thing,
i love you
and right now im not quite sure what that means
but i needed to say it because i don't say it nearly enough.
i love every part of you, your eyes, your voice, your smile
but also your laugh, it's golden to me
and i'd do anything to hear it again.
this might be weird for you
with a person who's not even here,
but i need you to know how much i love you
you may have heard a lot of 'i love you's
but mine is truly genuine
and i mean it with all my heart.
so, i love you
whatever that means."

Then to end the letter, it states my name and class. But also asks him to meet me on the rooftop to give me his answer. 

I found a locker that prints the initials of 'R.S'. It's also in his year, so it must be his locker! After a while, i found it after all. I quickly placed the letter in his locker and ran off to my last class of the day.

My heart was beating super fast. I was staring at the school's view. You could see the whole school from the rooftop. It's also a peaceful place, perfect for relaxing. So, if i do end up in a heartbreak, this place would be best to calm be down. The door suddenly opened behind me. I started fiddling with my skirt once i heard footsteps walking towards me. "Y/n l/n, who knew someone like you could be interested in me?" I heard a voice behind me. It doesn't sound like Rarumine's voice though.. "I'm attached to you too, you're mine now." The voice ended with a laugh. That's definitely not Rarumine. I turned around to face the person i gave my love letter to. "Ryusei Shido.." 

¡! timeskip ,, presence

That's right, i've had way worst scenarios. I'll be fine. I'll be fine.. I did a short breathing excercise like usual and scanned my id. My room was dark. The lights are out, did Sae head to bed already? I stepped in my room as my door closed behind me. I sighed in relieve, good thing for me then! I suddenly tripped and fell on the floor. "Ouch.. How clumsy am i..?" I blinked for a few seconds. "That actually didn't hurt as much.." I fell on the ground, yet my ground is soft today? I felt the ground and heard a groan all of a sudden. "What are you doing..?" 

A/N ¡! confession gone wrong!! wait.. does that mean u and shido r dating?? or did u reject him? what really happened after? and who did you fall on? where are you touching y/n..?! 
nearly 11 pm, author is very tired, cya all next chap!