Villarmazan Series #3: Chasing Sharvari

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Chapter 39

Kaleidescope

Iniwan ko na ang kaibigan sa kusina.

Ni hindi ko na narinig ang sunod pa niyang sinabi. My sight was focused only on Incus.

I looked down at him on the sofa. Mariin ang ekspresyong pinapakita ko sa kaniya, pero salungat ang nararamdaman mo.

"Sa kwarto. Mag-uusap tayo."

Hindi naman siya umangal.

To be honest. I'm deeply terrified. If i would let my true emotions prevail, i'd be shaking by now. But best show that when we're alone.

Nauna na ako sa paglalakad at rinig ko naman ang pagsunod niya.

"Teka...sandali. Shans! Sabi ko na sa'yong bawal kayo diyan diba!"

"Calli, let them." Putol sa kaniya ni Malleus.

"I told her. I didn't know... Wasn't she supposed to learn it from me?" I heard Calli's concerns before i completely shut the door behind me.

Hinarap ko ang nobyo.

"What was she talking about? Anong sinabi niya sa'yo?" Panimula niya.

"You tell me." Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

I swallowed a big lump on my throat before i spoke.

"Was it you?"

His slight confusion immediately wore away.

Mas lalo akong kinabahan dahil kita naman na kaagad niyang natanto ang ibig kong sabihin.

I was praying... on the back of my head. Until he confessed...

"Yes."

My heart dropped on my stomach. And It was as if a ticking bomb was dropped on me.

I was hoping he wouldn't lie. But i was more on wishing... Hoping... That it wasn't him. Na baka marami lang talagang kaaway si Rex.

"How? Paano mo nagawang..." I was astounded. "How could you even...kill...someone, Incus? Ni hindi ko ma-imagine na may kakahayan kang--"

Kahit sa pagsasalita ay nahihirapan na ako.

Mariin pa rin ang titig niya sa akin. Na para bang pinapakita niya lamang na wala siyang pakialam. O kahit katiting na pagsisisi sa nagawa niya.

"I wouldn't even say that i did it for you because God knows it would be another batch of a terrible sin! I did it for myself... Because i knew i couldn't live with myself just by thinking that kind of a person will just be behind bars considering how a range of damage he has done to you."

"Kaya nga e! Incus naman! Sana hinayaan mo na lang! Because that is where he belongs... In jail!" Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagtaas ng boses.

"Hindi lang naman ikaw! There were a lot of 'you', Sharvari!" Nagagalit na rin siya. Sumisigaw.

"Marami na siyang nabiktima rin! And the youngest of them? Guess the age... 15!"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Napatabon ako sa bibig sa sobrang bigla.

Ang... Putanginang iyon! Walang hiya! Hayop!

"May anak siya sa isang kinse anyos! Fucking fifteen! Sharvari! At hindi sila makapag reklamo! You know why? Because like you... They were afraid!"

"And it doesn't help that this country's system is fucked up! It's just... FUCK!!"

I can see and hear his frustration. On how he growls and how he pulls his hair forcefully.