Tarlos One shots

Come apart

Prompt by me - Tk and Carlos spend their honeymoon differently - they stay home

Two nights before their wedding Carlos lay in bed Tk's head on his chest his hands tangled through Tk's hair .. he wanted them to stay like this in their loft - where nobody could hurt them -

The outside world - their jobs were so dangerous every day he ran the risk of losing someone he loved he lost his father to a bullet he couldn't lose Tk

"Would you mind if we stayed home? For our honeymoon ." Carlos said his hand under the collar of Tk's shirt stroking his upper back.

"It's okay if you don't want to - it's just - I don't think I wanna go anywhere right now. I like it in here ." Carlos said as Tk looked up at him " I'm happy wherever you are ." Tk said Carlos knew Tk wasn't lying but something caused a pool of guilt to grow in his stomach

After their wedding, they made their way through the loft "home sweet home ." Tk said softly as they came into their loft "It's our first time here as husbands." Carlos mentioned pulling Tk in slowly " and there's nowhere else I would rather be ." Tk said softly

Tk made his way to Louis the second tank pulling him out of his tank and signaling Carlos to come over "im good right here ." Carlos laughed taking off his dress shoes "Your daddies are married Lou!" tk smiled at the lizard "I still don't get why you like those things ." Carlos laughed "he's not a thing he's our son ." tk said kissing Lou before putting him back in his tank "Come here ." tk smiled puckering his lips "Nope as much as I love you - I will not kiss you if you have lizard lips ." Carlos snarked unhooking his suspenders but tk kissed him anyways "he's a bearded dragon ." tk smirked as Carlos cringed at the kiss

"are you going to make your husband shower alone on our wedding night ." tk said peeking his head from the bathroom, "no sorry - ill be in in a minute ." Carlos said running his hand through his gelled curls not long later he stepped into the shower with tk "You wanna tell me what's going on in your beautiful brain ?" tk said as the water ran over Carlos's skin "Nothing - I'm good ." Carlos said wrapping his hands around Tk's neck he knew Tk wasn't buying his lie but he desperately wanted him to cause Tk to believe his lie was easier than explaining the truth

"I can tell somethings bugging you ." tk said softly putting some of their body wash on a washcloth and running it along Carlos's shoulders "I just - I feel guilty for being so happy today - like im pretending nothing happened." That had been the first time in a long time that Carlos told the truth about his feelings

"Do you wish we didn't do it ?" Tk asked running the washcloth over Carlos's shoulders it would break Tk if Carlos answered yes because he didn't care about anyone else what mattered was that Carlos was happy and

"No - I'm glad we did it .. being married to you is all I've ever wanted .." Carlos said

"I just wish he could've been there .. you know - it eats me up inside that not only my dad - but your mom wasn't there today," Carlos said a lump grows in Tk's throat it had been almost a year since his mother's death and yet he still felt the same feeling every time someone brought it up

"I know ." Was all Tk could say without crying this wasn't about him - this wasn't about his mother this was about Carlos

"They were there though you know that -" Tk said his fingers stroking Carlos's chest."

"I know," Carlos said this time not holding back his tears he let it all come out Tk gently pulling him closer for a hug

he couldn't take Carlos's pain away but he could be there to help him through the darkness to help him get to the end of the tunnel to see the light

Later that night they sat in bed with their Mr and Mr mugs that Nancy had gotten them just one of their many wedding gifts

Carlos slowly sipped on his tea the tear stains fresh on his cheeks Tk rubbed his back gently " I'm a pathetic husband ." Carlos couldn't help but say

"No your not ." Tk perked up in bed to look at Carlos

"It's our wedding night Tk - you're here rubbing my back after I just had a full-on breakdown - I should be making love to you and letting you know how much I love you -," Carlos said

"I don't care about that Carlos -" Tk protest

"We have been through hell this past month I can't even imagine doing that right now - besides I know how much you love me you tell me every day," Tk said

" I want this okay - when we slid those rings on each other's fingers today we promised to be there for the good the bad and the ugly I want all of this Carlos - ."

"I want all of you ."