Tarlos One shots

To hell and back

Prompt - Carlos struggles to wrap his head around his father's death and Tk struggles to help him so they figure it out together

5 weeks after his fathers passing

5 weeks how could it be 5 weeks? It seemed like 5 months

He was good at masking his whole life it felt like his whole life he was masking but his father's death completely through him for a loop it tore his guard down to the studs

He didn't wanna get up he didn't wanna go to work he hated grief he wishes after he overheard the events on the phone with his mother a lump grew in his throat leaving it raw. When he and tk arrived at the hospital just in time to proclaim his father dead. That one hit hard not even being able to see his father's last breath. He wasn't able to say goodbye .not only that but the look all around the room as his sisters had tears falling down their cheeks his nieces and nephews burying their heads into their mother's stomachs

his mother was completely distraught the grip on his hand became stronger he could feel tks eyes watching searching - searching for something to know what was going on in his head but there was nothing he could do to show tk the hell that was going on in his head

now 5 weeks later he still hasn't found a way to let tk in to let him see the truth.

"hey im gonna go help my mom today .." Carlos mentioned as tk came out of the bedroom in his uniform "That's good .. tell her I say hi and that we will see her Sunday." tk smiled coming over to Carlos he put his med kit and keys on the counter "hey you call me if you need anything okay ?" tk said wrapping his hands around Carlos's neck

"ill be okay." Carlos lies. his childhood home he hated going back to now - not after what happened in the entryway he can just remember his mothers screaming on the phone

I'm worried about you .." tk said his hand gently rubbing up and down Carlos's chest "Don't.." Carlos said biting his lip

He didn't mean to come off hard "I'm sorry I just mean that I'm fine ." Carlos said running his hands through Tk's hair "Just promise you'll call me ?" Tk said, " I promise ." Carlos said as Tk pecked his cheek

Tk held his clipboard looking through the different compartments in the ambulance " alright spit it out ." Nancy said closing the door to the ambulance

" I don't know what you're talking about ." Tk mumbled "You've been wandering around the firehouse like a lost puppy dog for the past week. Even Buttercup looks happier ." Nancy said taking Tk's clipboard" Really?" Tk huffed as Nancy sat on his clipboard "Yes really because I like seeing you happy and your not happy something's bugging you and you're gonna tell me what's going on." Nancy said

"I'm just - I'm worried about Carlos you know," Tk said leaning his back against the ambulance Nancy studied his every move

She loved busting Tk's balls but she thought of him as a little brother and if anything threatened his happiness she would find out

"He's just been so quiet since his dad .. and he won't tell me anything he just insists he's fine .." Tk said

"Maybe that's because he is fine .." Nancy said softly

"Nance I know him he's hurting - he can barely sleep through the night before he has a nightmare and then leaves bed for the couch ." Tk scoffs

"You've lost a parent you know how it can affect a person help him how you know how to .." Nancy said taking Tk's hands "even if he doesn't want it ."

"You to have been to hell and back you can get through anything .. now go home I'm covering your shift -" Nancy said, "no - you can't nance ." Tk protested

"Im not taking no for an answer .." Nancy said, " go my little basset hound ." Nancy laughed

When Carlos got home from his mother's house he walked into the loft putting his keys in the bowl before sipping his face from the tears he had released on the ride home " Hey.." Tk mumbled from the kitchen Carlos released a sharp breath gripping the counter " I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you ." Tk Said coming over to Carlos

Carlos tried to shield his face from Tk but it was not used Tk turned Carlos around so he was facing him Tk reached his thumb up wiping the remaining tears from Carlos's eyes

"Don't hide from me ." Tk whispered as Carlos looked into his eyes for what felt like the first time since the wedding " I wanted to be strong - and not let it affect me I wanted to push through -." Carlos said as Tk pulled him closer "That's not how grief works sweetheart .." Tk said tears now filling his own eyes

"Im here you can let your guard down ." Tk said, "It's just me ." Tk whispered softly and with that Carlos did hurting his face in Tk's neck they stayed like that for a little before eventually moving to the couch

Carlos cried

He ranted

He let himself feel

It wasn't going to solve the problem but it was a good start

"I'm sorry for lying .." Carlos said rubbing his face as he sat up from Tk's lap "Grief isn't easy you were there for me and lord knows I was a stubborn bitch ." Tk admitted making Carlos laugh

" maybe just a little ." Carlos joked

" I also like what's going on with this we should keep this," Tk smirked touching Carlos's stubble

"Oh, you like it ." Carlos teased "Yeah it's whatever ." Tk laughed "Oh my god it turns you on." Carlos laughed " I never said that ." Tk laughed throwing a pillow at Carlos

"Come here and let me kiss your stupid face ." Carlos smiled

If you hate it feel free to let me know in the comments also how is this chapter 50 already