Last Friday Night ~ tamber

14 ~ 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆

I closed my notebooks and turned around in my chair. I studied with Mindy for two hours. In fact, she was the one who explained chemistry to me for two hours and I pretended to understand.

— I'm tired — I said and I ran my hand through my hair

— We did three exercises.

— Isn't that enough?

She rolled her eyes and closed her books too. I reached for my cup of already cold coffee and took a few sips. I hate chemistry.

— Why am I even helping you? — Mindy asked

— Because I'm hot. 

— Maybe.

I rubbed my eyes and yawned. I don't know what is happening to me. Lately I've been sulking and exhausted all the time. It's probably because I miss drugs. I have a hard time without it. The insides of my cheeks are sore. That's because I keep biting them. Sometimes even my leg shakes. I can't focus on anything. I mean, when I'm with someone, it's okay. But when I'm sitting alone, all I can think about is getting stoned. Maybe it's time to end my detox. I often drink wine to somehow relax my body, but it doesn't work. I just need drugs. Some methamphetamine or cocaine. That would help me. One line and all this pain would be gone.

— Got some weed? — I asked and I looked at Mindy

— Possible. 

I smirked and I started playing with the ends of my hair. Mindy broke our eye contact for a moment to look at the floor and back at me.

— Shall we smoke? — I asked, seeing that she wasn't getting the hint

She is silent, which is strange. Mindy's thinking about something and I don't think I'm going to like it.

— Do you know that everyone can see that you're suffering? — she said and I'm looking at her confused — When you're sober.

— Detox isn't easy. It's normal but I'm doing fine.

— Is that why you look like you're about to faint?

— Why are we talking about this? — I asked annoyed

I know she never liked that I was doing drugs. But why can't she shut up and just smoke with me. It's weed, not a fucking crack.

— I don't know. Maybe it would be better to quit drugs under the eye of specialists.

My hands tightened on the arm of the chair.

— Who said I'm quitting? I'm taking a break and that's it.

Mindy just sighed and rubbed her face with her hands. I let go of the chair and stood up. I walked over to Mindy and knelt in front of her, placing my hands on her thighs.

— Let's smoke and have fun — I said

She didn't answer me, she's just keeping eye contact. I guess I should try harder.

I grabbed her hips and pulled her closer so my face is against the zipper of her pants.

— Come on — I'm trying to encourage her

I want to smoke and not think about anything.

— No, Amber.

Disappointed, I got up off the floor. Mindy sighed and got up to pack her things. I leaned against the desk and closed my eyes. I know I can smoke myself, but that wouldn't be fun. It would be a boring and long phase.

— Seriously, try to stay completely sober all week. No alcohol, no drugs, no weed. Try.

I looked at her and she swung her handbag over her shoulder.