Whisper of Virtouso (Love Material Series #2)

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

Growing older, I've understood that losing my way is a vital part of the journey. Each time it happens, I uncover elements of myself perched at the brink of the unfamiliar. Kung saan ba talaga lulugar. Kung ano talaga ako. 'Yong totoong ako.

In my efforts to regain my bearings, I consistently discover a deeper appreciation for myself amidst moments of solitude and emptiness. Magisa lang ako. Wala si Mama.  Walang Ate Kissha. Walang Papa. . .pero kung nandito si Papa, mararamdaman ko iyon, pero wala siya.

Wala na siya.

Being lost is a beautiful space for self-discovery. Often, we misconstrue these paths, feeling like we're not where we want to be. However, these roads are designed to mold us, imparting lessons through pain, hardship, and struggle, shaping us into a stronger version equipped with courage and resilience. It's in the journey of getting lost and finding your way that your true story begins.

Pero. . .hanggang saan ko kakayanin? Hanggang kailan ko pagtitiisin? Hanggang kailan ko kikimkimin?

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako tumigil sa kakaiyak kanina. Iyak na akong iyak kanina pagkagising ko. Natataranta na sila hindi alam kung paano ako patatahanin.

"Wife, take good care of yourself," the doctor, newly arrived, advised. "It's fortunate that your child has a strong attachment. Avoid stress, eat nutritious food. Your pregnancy is delicate; it's one month."

I listened quietly, nodding to every instruction. Kenzo assured the doctor he would note down all the orders to ensure nothing was forgotten, promising to keep me informed.

"Number one... Eat fruits and vegetables. Number two, avoid stress," Kenzo whispered as he tapped away on his phone.

I chuckled, shaking my head. He truly aimed to be a father to my son, diligently embracing the responsibilities even though he wasn't the biological father.

Nang matapos akong kausapin ng Doctor ko ay nagpaalam na ito hinatid ni Kenzo hanggang sa pintuan. Akmang uupo na sana siya sa tabi ko nang bigla ko siyang suntukin sa braso nito.

"Hoy! Ipapaalala ko lang, hindi ikaw ang ama nito!" Natatawang sabi ko.

Napangiwi si Kenzo dahil sa palo ko. "Hoy ka rin! Ipapaalala ko lang din na. . . Ako tatayong tatay niyan hangga't 'di mo sinasabi sa totoong tatay 'yang nasa tiyan mo,"

Aba, tumatapang ang bata ko.

"Kina-career mo pagiging tito mo, ah!"  Pabirong saad ko.

"Tito Kenzo," anas ko. "Pangalan pa lang, mukhang tae na,"

"Hoy, Alyzza Felix Tiangco! Your son will call me Dada!" He declared, crossing his chest. "Then Mommy will call you for a happy family."

I found myself surrounded by his words! Was he serious? It seemed like he was really committed to this playful idea!

"Puta ka! Ano'ng happy family ka d'yan, gusto ko masuka sa mga pinagsasabi mo, Zorence Kent!"

Natatawang sabi ko sa kaniya. Sobrang nagpapasalamat ko sa kaniya, sa totoo lang sobrang laki ng tulong na ginagawa niya sa amin mag-ina. Kahit hindi pa lumalabas ang anak ko, ramdam na ramdam ko ang care ni Kenzo. Until now, hindi pa alam nina Erica at Shainny tungkol sa pinagbubuntis ko.

Hindi ako handa. Ayoko. Nabanggit ni Kenzo noong nagtanong sila kung ano'ng meron? Buntis ba ako? Bakit dinugo ako? Nagdahilan na lang daw si Kenzo na sobrang stress at mali ang nainom kong pills kaya naging masama ang epekto.

Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala sila. Basta. Gusto ko itago muna sa kanila. Sasabihin ko rin sa kanila, h'wag lang ngayon.

Nang makauwi na kami ay todo bilin si Kenzo sa mga sinabi ng doctor sa akin.