Prologue
"Please stop being an asshole," I hissed but he just stared at me. He just stared at me and said nothing. Nakakairita.
"Ano ba, Andrei! Are you just going to stare at me? Wala kang sasabihin?" I snapped again. This time, he took a deep sigh.
"I told you, I want this to be over," he simply said. I felt my eyes sting. God, it hurts. So bad.
"Ang daya mo," I just said. My tears continued to fall. Tangina, ang sakit eh. Sinayang ko lang talaga ang lahat.
"You said it's me now. You said you'll gonna love me. You said you'll never hurt me. Pero shit ka, anong ginagawa mo?" I murmured. Hindi ko na pinigilan ang sarili ko sa pag-iyak. What's the sense? Makikipaghiwalay na rin naman siya sa akin, I'll just let him see me in my worst state.
"I told you, I'll try."
"Try? Did you even try? Seryoso ka? Because as what I feel, you didn't. I mean, you never," I grumbled. Kating-kati na akong sampalin siya. I just don't know why I don't have the courage to do so.
"Okay. It's my fault. I should've not courted you," he mumbled. Shit, mas lalong sumakit. Mas lalong nanikip ang dibdib ko. I can't believe I'm inlove with this asshole.
"So ganun na lang 'yon? Iiwan mo ako kasi bumalik na siya? Iiwan mo ako kasi babalikan mo na siya? Iiwan mo ako kasi ayaw mo na? Iiwan mo ako kasi-"
"Oo! I'm leaving you because she's back to me again. I'm sorry, Lei. Hindi na sana kita dinamay sa pagkamiserable ko. I'm sorry for causing you pain. I'm sorry. But she's back. She's the one I love the most."
I bit my lower lip. Ayaw ko nang magsalita. Ayaw ko nang magmura. Pagod na ako. If he wants her back, he can get her back. Para saan pa ang pagiging almost perfect niya? He can get whatever he wants. But not me anymore.
Tama na ang sakit. He can't drag me once again.
"I'm sorry for making you an option," he said before finally leaving.
That's it. He said it. I was just an option.
