Eleven

nineteen.

i had been feeling mixed emotions since dallas' literal 'living over the edge' event.

i hadn't been so close to seeing death since my mother passed away and it was awful.

there was a difference between

planned death

&

accidental death.

and it just wasn't fair.

that people joked about it because it wasn't right.

we as humans know that there is an end to the life cycle.

but we expect you to complete all the stages of life before the end.

not cut it abruptly short because it got tough.

or it was too hard.

or because you wanted to 'live over the edge'.

but then again i did say death is death.

something we know will eventually come.

so i guess i shouldn't care.