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A/N: sorry I'm really feeling Conor Maynard right now...and having a major desire to be a YouTuber *le sigh*

(Unedited and very shitty)

Anyway here you go :)

P.S authors note at the end too, please read? Thanks xx

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You and c/n had been together for roughly three months now and everything had been beautiful, peaceful and calm.. Too calm. Your calm seas had to come to an end at some point and tonight, the storm hit.

You were both sleep deprived; you had matching deep purple crescents resting under your eyes, draining the beauty from your face. How could either of you sleep when you felt it looming over you, like a shadowed figure, it followed you around. You could feel it feeding off your breath and emitting it's dark thoughts around you.

So who can blame either of you for laying beside eachtother, never speaking, never looking, just breathing; just existing. Feeling the darkness soak into your skin and access your mind, where there it would lye dormant, just waiting to explode.

Tonight you sat curled up on your sofa, some random TV show playing in the background that you weren't really watching, you just needed something... Anything.. To fill the silence.

C/n had left, stormed off muttering stupid sentences and angry words, darkness filling his eyes. You had just shrugged, his anger rolling off your skin and falling to the floor.

Neither of you had seemed like yourselves these past few days. Instead of feeling alive and like you were actually living your life, you felt as though you were trapped just a step outside of reality. Watching your life play out... Terribly and not being able to do a damn thing about it. You could scream until your throat screamed itself, claw at this cage keeping you hostage until your nails bled, you could think like this all you wanted but it wouldn't change anything.

You lost track of time and soon, the darkness surrounding your mind was surrounding your home, the only thing piercing through it being the soft glow of the moon. You always got comfort from the moon, it's light resembled one which you would have plugged in near your bed as a child to scare away the monsters. Except this time the monsters had escaped their prison beneath your bead and had climbed their way into your head.

The idea of light splitting through the dark and keeping you safe, enclosing you in its radiance, driving out the devil hiding beneath your skin was something you needed right now.

Everything seemed to be bowing down to the darkness and you desperately needed your light. Everything felt as though it was drifting away, that it was on a raft being carried out to sea and you were stuck on an island surrounded by silence and emptiness. You needed light and you needed it close.

you sat, wrapped in a blanket, just staring at the moon; it's light dancing across your skin and caressing your soft features. You were so focused on watching the moon, observing what it shined upon and desperately trying to smile at the beauty of it that you didn't even notice c/n had come home.

Dark liquor pumped through his veins but his eyes desperately clung to their light.

He moved to stand in front of you and watched you, so beautifully unaware. His heart was begging his body to feel something, it was furious that the brain was being so ignorant. C/n was in love with you, deeply, shittily madly in love and he was ignoring it.

He would spend his nights, loosing sleep so he could watch you and he knew it seemed 'rapey' but he couldn't help but see you. The way you slept beside him, always on the verge of reaching for him, your eyelids softly fluttering as they watched your dream unfold, he loved you.

He loved you..

What was he doing? What were both of you doing? You loved each other. More than you loved anything.

And with that realisation, the darkness left c/n, tumbling out of his lips as he spoke.

"I love you"

Your body hunched forward ever so slightly, your heart skipping a beat and your brain doing spins. Whether that was because he had scared you or because he had just told you he loved you, you weren't sure.

"I.." Your lips parted as you mentally begged your brain to stop spinning and think of something to say.

He rushed to be sat beside you, grabbing for your hands. You felt it leave you. All the horrible thoughts that he was cheating, using you, hating you. Everything left.

You looked up at him and saw the excitement in his eyes, you couldn't help but smile at the dork.

"We've been so stupid y/n. I love you! Why didn't I just man up, look past whatever fog was strangling my brain and listen to my heart" he took your hand ever so gently and placed it over his heart.

"Why didn't I just listen to my heart, listen to how it beats for you. I mean it's practically singing about how much I love you"

Sure enough, it was. The skin of his chest was bare beneath your finger tips, the deep cut neck of his shirt allowing your hand to rest perfectly over his heart. You could feel it, his heart singing for you, every beat rippled through the palms of your hand, following every line on your skin, every vein benath the surface until it met your own heart.

He smiled, his eyes roaming your face.

"Yourself so beautiful.. And that's my heart talking" you hit his chest gently as he laughed, moving his arms to be wrapped around you and holding you close.

"I love you too c/n, I'm not sure why I haven't said it or why you haven't noticed but I do. I love you so so much that the word love seems pathetic compared to what I feel. What I feel is much stronger, a-and you deserve so much more than love an-"

C/n was watching you intently while you spoke, his eyes soft but curious and his lips ever so slightly puckered as he bit down on a smile. He looked so in love with you.

So in love that you couldn't help but lean forward and kiss him, the rest of your words being lost in his lips. And as you sat there tangled together and speaking agaisnt his lips, the moon seemed to glow brighter, it was free of its darkness too. And now that it was free it shone down on you, revealing everything.

C/n grinned agasint your lips and you realised.

You had never felt this way towards someone, it was more than love or lust it was more than just a crush... You felt close.

A/N: please don't just skip past this. I'm watching you. So I was thinking about starts off with a tumblr blog, where I could give you guys advice about life, love, beauty, school work or whatever or write more personalised imagines, just anything really. Just be there to help or entertain :)

So if you guys would be interested let me know? Xxxx