Send me to sleep: Dan X reader

Jump into the fog

You bolt upright, breathing heavily and looking around in shock.

"Phil, did you just see him?" you cry.

"who?" he asks puzzled.

"Dan who else?!" you yell.

"Y/N, you're seeing things. he's not here," Phil sighs, "he's gone..."

the figure re-appears from the foggy alleyway.

"look! over there!"

"Oh, my, god..." Phil baffles.

standing up you drag him over and begin to chase the figure into the fog.

he's bent over, leaning on the back of a bench, crying into his hands.

as you approach him his sobs get louder.

placing a quivering hand on his back makes him flinch.

he stands upright and slowly turns to you with wide, hazel eyes.

you hold your breath and let hot tears roll down silently.

you stand there in silence just staring in shock.

"two years," he broke the silence, "it's been two whole years since I've seen your face."

you look down, "I've missed you Dan." you sob.

"I've missed you too, why didn't you call." he says.

this angers you, how dare he put this on you. he could at least let you know he wasn't dead!

"what?! Are you kidding me! I thought you were dead! trying to call you would be insane when I believed that you were dead!" you cried.

"Y/N I left notes and letters back at the hotel!"

"what letter? we didn't go back, we took the first plane to London."

"i see. I need to go. I'll see you around I guess. it was nice knowing you but this is a bit much for me to handle, I'm  sorry, ive moved on. I have a girlfriend now. goodbye Y/N."

he smiles, rubs your shoulder and walks away slowly.

you're left speechless in the snow. flakes entwined in your eyelashes. just like that dan had gone again...

no breakup, Dan had a girlfriend.

you cant balme him, it'd been two years. someone as perfect as dan would have surely moved on.

it just feels wrong.

you are meant to be beside Dan, no one else.

picturing someone else with dan hurt, it hurt a lot.

you cant even imagine being with someone else, not even someone like Phil.

once again youre back. locked in your room. crying.

alone. speechless. heartbroken.

Phil keeps texting you, you ignore each beep, they hum in your ears.

you pull Dan's shirt over your head and breathe in his scent. this only makes you cry more.

he cant leave you.

not now.

you've just got him back.

after all, Dan saved you, you saved him too.

how can all you've been through mean nothing. the answer is it does. it means a lot.

does Dan realise that.

You hope he knows you still love him.

you said it,

you still love him...