deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 7

[vanessa's pov]
"look who finally decided to show up." cody says to me as i walk through his front door.
i roll my eyes, "what the hell cody? don't be like that.. you know i hate when you do this."
"where were you today?" he asks, folding his arms.
"like i said.. running errands." i lie.
he takes a step closer to me, "bullshit, vanessa."
what the hell do i say!? he's not leaving this whole thing alone.
i sigh, "cody, i got a job.. okay? it's embarrassing & i don't wanna talk about it."
i push past him to go to his room.
"vanessa, i'm so sorry! i didn't know, okay? i was worried." he calls from behind me.
i stop on the stairs and face him, "stop being worried about me.. i can take care of myself."
this situation only feels more & more wrong.. it's not fair to him, either..
i'm in a really tough place. usually things are absolutely great & perfect all the damn time with cody. he treats me as his one & only, he gives me nothing but love.
caleb however, can be confusing. one second you're his favorite, the next we don't talk. i always feel like i did something wrong. all i want is to be with caleb but he left me before, he can do it again. he has cheated before & cheaters always can be cheaters. it's all so frustrating & i know in my heart i need to take time for myself. i will always love him.. he's just not up for a relationship. he can't have the best of both worlds between her & i. this is awful for me. i overthink more than anyone i have ever met in my entire life.. and it ruins me.
i respect cody & i am in love with him, as much as i hate to admit it.
for now i decide to lay in his bed after my long day and fall asleep quickly.

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[caleb's pov]
it's day one of training.. i don't know what came over me in that corner store. jack tells me i have great aim.
this job is actually enjoyable. right now we're working on strength & agility.
running through tires, rock climbing & mini obstacle courses are just some examples.
i'm currently punching the fuck out of jack's target gloves. i make sure to keep good form.
we've been working at this for hours but it's going really well.
"damn.. looking good." i hear vanessa's voice coming from the doorway.
she walks into the locker room & when she comes back, she's wearing tight adidas workout leggings & a nike t-shirt. the shirt is fairly short, giving me a great view. she bends over to tie her shoe. of course.
i whine, "seriously?"
"what? i'm tying my shoe.." she says with a big smirk on her face.
she's evil, i'm telling you.
i try to continue focusing on what's at hand but my mind keeps getting distracted.
focus, caleb. focus.
i get a few more punches in & then jack tells me that i did great and we're done for today.
i wait for him to leave before walking over to vanessa who is beating the fuck out of the punching bag. her earbuds are in & blasting music, like always.
i place my hands on her shoulders and rub them softly. she jumps at first but then melts into my touch.
she pulls out her earbuds, "hi, handsome."
she turns around and wraps her arms around my neck. she leans in to kiss me but i stop her.
"i'm sweaty." i mention.
she laughs, "i don't care."
she kisses me anyways & smiles into it.
she's genuinely happy, isn't she? i.. make her happy? that's a curious thought.
i really want to make her happy... i want to be there for her, but i fuck up. i make mistakes but i just have to learn from them in the end. it's scary.
i push her away sometimes because she's better off without me.. yet she always holds on.
with this new job, it brings us closer.
she winks & walks away from me, going back to the locker room.

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when i get home, janice is sitting in my living room.
oh fuck.
"hey! we haven't talked in forever, are you okay?" she asks, immediately running to me & hugging me.
i'm only reminded of vanessa.. but i try to maintain my focus on janice.
i pull out my phone & post about janice on snapchat.
i then slide my phone back into my pocket and lay with her on the couch.
we watch pretty little liars & enjoy each other's company.

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the next morning, we have a few hours of work but it's christmas eve so we only have to check in.
i kiss janice goodbye and drive to the warehouse.
when i arrive, i see vanessa's jeep next to mine.
i tuck my hands in the pockets of my jacket and walk up to the door.
before i reach the steps, i hear a loud click.
the safety of a gun being turned off.
"hey.. don't try anything.." i mumble as i slowly turn around.
it's surprisingly vanessa. her eyes are red & tears stream down her face.
my heart is racing. she aims the gun at my head.
she's trying to keep her composure, "i.. trusted you. was it all for nothing? was i not enough?"
i decide on not saying anything to her in sake i of the weapon pointed at my head.j
"i loved you with everything i had, caleb. all i fucking wanted was you! you broke my heart, once again. does that make you happy? does that make you feel good? i hope she's worth it, caleb." she speaks through gritted teeth and waves the gun around as she talks.
she places her finger on the trigger and tears only fall down her face faster. she cries harder.
the gun goes off but she purposely points it to the right of me.
she drops the gun to the ground and falls against the wall behind us.
i have no time to react to anything. the heavy metal door swings open & damien starts shouting.
"hey! what the fuck!? what's going on!?" he yells.
he looks at me and then looks at vanessa who is still crying on the ground.
damien's jaw clenches & his fist suddenly connects with my jaw.
blood splatters from my mouth onto the white snow.
he throws a great punch.
my jaw throbs in pain. what the fuck!?
he goes to swing again but vanessa screams.
we both look at her as she slowly stands up from the ground.
"stop it." she whispers.

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FOOKING HELL.

this chapter is AAKSKFKKF

search "drunk edits" on soundcloud & listen to all of the music in that account it's sO GOOD & fits the violent parts of this story so well.

thank you for reading. xo.

- adrianna