deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 13

songs :

• help me out - alicks
• it is what it is - lifehouse
• me - the 1975

__________
[vanessa's pov]
memories flash through my mind..
it's dark.. everything is dark again. it's just like i remembered.
my grandma's voice comes through, "what the hell are you doing? get back out there!"
she places her hands on my shoulders and gives me a small push.
i feel everything go fuzzy.

---
[caleb's pov]
i'm leaning over here & holding her in my arms.
it's just her & i in this venue while damien runs to get the escalade.
everything around us is broken. as i was told, she was pushed into a mirror and then slammed into the ground.
shards of glass cut several areas on her arms & chest. the bleeding has slowed down but there's still a lot of blood.
i'm so worried about her.. everything inside of me is numb. she didn't deserve this..
"vanessa, come back. i'm sorry, okay? i need you here.. come back." i say, placing my hand on her cheek.
her eyelashes flutter.
holy fuck.
"damien!" i shout.
she coughs and catches her breathe. when she opens her eyes, she sees that it's me.
she smiles & wraps her arms around me. she lays in my arms.
she's crying, i can hear her.
"hey, don't cry. it's okay.. everything is going to be okay." i whisper, running my fingers over her hair.
she moves from my lap to the floor and gains her balance back.
damien rushes in the venue, "vanessa?"
"hey." she mumbles.
she looks down at her arms & chest and groans.
"glass does not feel too great, let me tell you." she laughs & wipes her bloody hands on her dress.
she looks up at me & her eyes fall to my clothes, "caleb! is all that blood from me!?" she asks.
i smile, "some of it, yeah.. a lot of it is from all those guys' asses i kicked back there."
she smiles and wipes her fallen tears away.
"we should go." damien insists, helping her up from the floor.
she winces slightly but takes a deep breathe.
"i'm okay, just get this glass out of me." she says.
damien nods & starts to walk with her out of the venue.
"caleb, you're coming with." vanessa says to me.
damien's face flashes with annoyance but it clears quickly, "that's fine."
"i didn't ask for your permission." she says to damien.
he sighs, "okay.. i'm just glad you're okay."
she rolls her eyes and walks out the front door.
she's a sass sometimes but she's really great. i can't imagine what life would be like without her.

----
[vanessa's pov]
caleb holds up the metal tray while damien takes tweezers & pulls out the glass shards.
it hurts like a bitch but i just try to take deep breathes.
"one more, okay?" he says.
i bite on my lip as i feel him pull on the last piece. a sharp pain rushes through the area but it fades after a moment.
i take a deep breathe, "thank you."
he sets down the tweezers & washes his hands in the sink next to us.
caleb puts the tray on the table, "are you okay?"
i nod and keep taking deep breathes.
"thank you both, i really appreciate everything you do for me." i try to express my gratitude as best as i can. there's an awkward tension in the room but i choose to ignore it.
we're at damien's house in one of his giant bathrooms. it was hilarious to see caleb's reaction to the place.
damien takes a deep breathe, "there's not much in the kitchen.. i'm going to run to the store quick. stay in the house & don't touch anything."
he glares at caleb before leaving the bathroom.
the front door opens & closes.
"hey." caleb says, placing his hands on my thighs.
i smile, "hi. thanks for everything.. and i'm sorry damien is such a dick to you."
"i would be a dick to me too if i were him.. i deserve it. i'm such an asshole. i fuck up too much, vanessa." he admits.
damn. wasn't expecting that. there's always a way to fix things.. but he just has to prove some things to me.. i'm so confused all the time.
one second he wants me, the next he doesn't.
he flips moods every two seconds & you never know exactly what he's going to do, what he's thinking or what is going to happen between the two of you.
i try my best to deal with it all.. it just gets confusing. yeah, he hurt me.. but i'm still in love with him.. even if i try to stop.. i always fail.
i try to keep as much distance as possible.. distance will dull the pain, won't it?
maybe he should see his life without me in it.. every time i distance myself, he always ends up finding his way back.
he's not over me.. i keep my mouth shut about it.
i'm going with the flow & taking things easy.. i'm still not in the clear & i'm still a bit pissed at him.
i slide off the edge of the bathtub and walk past caleb into the living room.
"what's wrong?" he asks, following me.
i laugh, "i just got knocked out & then got glass pulled out of me."
"besides that.. i'm talking about emotionally." he mumbles.
"i don't know caleb.. you're just really damn confusing.. how long will this 'i care about you' spell last? when will the switch flip again?" i fold my arms across my chest.
we're both still pretty bloody. we look like we just walked out of a horror movie or something.
i probably look like a disaster but i could care less after today.
he looks in my eyes, "i care about you. i always do."
"why do you become distant then? why do you say things in the heat of the moment & then take them back? why do you come back.. can't you just forget about me?" i ask.
he shakes his head, "i've tried.. that's the weird part. my life isn't the same without you.. i miss us. i miss you, i do.. i'm just confused. i don't know what to do."
"try working things out for me & try to make up your mind, okay? this hurts when you do this.. you act like i mean the world to you & then the next day i'm nothing to you & she's everything to you. it's not fair." i explain.
he nods, "i'm sorry."
"prove that, then. okay?" i say.
the front door opens & damien steps through.
"i'm back with taco bell & culver's." damien says, walking into the living room.
FUCK. YES.
i run to him & wrap my arms around him, careful not to crush the bags.
"thank you!" i giggle, grabbing the bags from him and running to the kitchen.
i love food.

----
[caleb's pov]
we sit around sipping on our drinks. it's a really nice house.. honestly. he's a show-off & i'm starting to wonder where he got all this money.
how could he own a house like this by himself?
"so, damien.. you live alone?" i ask.
he nods, "yep."
"in a house this big? why?"
"i enjoy the quiet. who wouldn't want a big house?"
"i just think it's pretty odd, damien.. how long did it take you to get this place?"
"it's mostly family inherited. i've been doing this job longer than both you & vanessa.. it pays well."
"interesting."
the way he explains everything makes me slightly uncomfortable.. he has to be hiding something.
"you said family inherited? who's your family? where are they?" vanessa asks.
damien sighs, "most of them are dead. a few of them committed suicide while the others died in a terrible fire."
vanessa's expression changes, "oh.. i'm so sorry."
"it's okay, i promise. they're in a better place." he says, trailing off at the end.
the room is silent for a moment.
"thank you guys so much.. for everything. i probably should get home so i can shower & stuff. it's been a pretty chaotic day." vanessa slides off her chair.
i nod, "i need to take her to get her car at the warehouse. thanks for everything, damien."
he nods. vanessa walks to him & kisses him on the cheek before leaving the room.
"see you tomorrow." i say to damien before following vanessa out the door.
she walks down the steps.
she's walking in heels in the snow. i shake my head and pick her up in my arms.
"oh my god!" she giggles and leans into my chest.
i carry her to the passenger side of my car and set her down.
"thank you, caleb." she says, sliding into the seat.
i close her door for her & get into the drivers seat.
we drive to the warehouse.
it's dark out now. it's snowing lightly.
when we pull into the parking lot, she gets out of my car & walks to her jeep.
"thank you so much for everything, seriously. i'll see you tomorrow, then." she says, pulling on the handle to her car door.
"of course." i say.
seeing her in front of me, the one street light casting over her.. the way she's looking at me.
i feel a rush of courage flash through me. i walk up to her and press my lips against hers, quickly.
her lips are as soft & sweet as i remember.
we disconnect and she looks at me in shock.
then, she blushes.
"goodnight, caleb." she says, getting into her car & driving away.

& i swear i can still feel her lips on mine.

-----
CALEB I S2G U ALWAYS KISSING VANESSA MAKE UP UR MIND LMAO

the video on this video is kinda a flashback-ish video?? idek

hope everyone is having a great day(:

thank you for reading! xo

- adrianna