deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 27

songs :

• company - justin bieber
• anything could happen - ellie goulding
• ocean eyes - billie eilish

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[vanessa's pov]
first class is pretty amazing. we have a half hour left until we land & i'm so beyond excited.
"you ready?" damien asks.
i nod, "mhm."
he lifts up the arm rest between us & i lean on his chest. he picks up a piece of my hair and twirls it around between his fingers.
"can i ask you something? please.. don't feel pressured in any way." he says.
i look up at him, "of course."
"vanessa, will you be my girlfriend?" he asks.
holy shit it's happening.
fuck, i love him. this will be good.. he cares. he cares about you. it will be okay.
"i would love to be your girlfriend." i say, smiling.
a big grin appears on his face and he leans down, his lips touching mine.
"attention passengers, we will now be landing. please buckle up and thank you for flying with us. welcome to california!" says the flight attendant.
the plane's passengers give a small cheer & i feel a rush of joy wash over me.
everything is okay.
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"it's higher sixties, lower seventies but it's much better than actual snow & freezing temperatures." damien says, grabbing our luggage from the track.
i smile, "sounds perfect."
he takes my hand and we walk towards the exit.
ahead of us are men and women dressed in tuxedos, holding up signs.
i then see "black" written on one of them.
damien walks with me towards the man.
the man smiles and shakes damien's hand.
"damien black?" he asks.
damien smiles, "yes, sir."
"right this way." he says, walking out the door.
we walk up to the cabs & vans out front, but we turn right instead.
a shiny black limo. are you forreal!?
"is this..?" i ask.
he laughs, "yes, babe."
the driver helps us load our luggage in. we then climb inside and oh my god..
the interior is even more amazing, everything is so shiny and beautiful.
"wow.. you didn't have to do all of this." i say.
he takes my hand in his and smiles.
"this is our time to relax, to chill out.. to get away from it all." he says, kissing me on the cheek.
i smile and look down at our hands which intertwine perfectly.
i then pull out my phone and open snapchat, taking a picture of our hands and the neon stripe across the seats of the limo, giving it a nice glow.
i add it to my snapchat story and then take a deep breathe. you're okay. you're on vacation.
he laughs as he sees what i see. an aux cord laying on the edge of one of the windows.
"do it." he says.
i plug my phone in and decide on playing "anything could happen" by ellie goulding before relaxing in his arms. i have a feeling this is going to be pretty great.

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[caleb's pov]
it's snowing hard when i pull into the parking lot.
i glance in the mirror and run my fingers through my hair. it's fairly messy from the snow.
my spotify playlist is on shuffle, so i shut it off and get out of my car.
i walk into work, a coffee in my hand.
"damien?" i call out.
i hear footsteps and then i see the dirty blonde hair. it's jack, not damien.
"hey." he says.
i slide off my jacket, "hi, jack. what's up?"
"nothing much.. haven't gotten any files today. wanna go grab a donut or something?" he asks.
that's strange.. no files? whatever.
i furrow my eyebrows, "won't damien know we left.. like isn't he expecting us today?"
"damien? dude, he's gonna be gone pretty much this whole week." he says.
i blink & try to recall a time where he said he was leaving.. weird.
not that i'm complaining or anything, but it's kind of strange. what could he be doing for almost a whole week?
"gone? where?" i ask.
he laughs, "he went to california with his girlfriend or whatever.. you know, vanessa?"
i did not just hear that. what?
i clench my jaw, "oh.. i'll take you up on that offer, then."
whatever, it's fine. i'm sure she's happy and great. she'll have fun.
he grabs the escalade keys off the rack and we head out together.

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[vanessa's pov]
i finish my piece of pizza as damien takes a sip of his soda. the house he wanted to rent ended up not being available, so instead of going to a hotel like a normal person.. damien bought out this nice resort place.
it's huge & has the biggest balcony ever, as well as a perfect view over the city.
i get up from the bed and walk to one of the many doors to the balcony.
it's the perfect weather, but it's a bit on the cooler side. i'm not stressed, i'm not overthinking..
i feel okay for once in my life.
the sound of door sliding interrupts my thoughts.
i turn around to face him, "i can't thank you enough for all of this."
he walks quickly to me, wrapping his arms around my waist and pressing his lips against mine.
i place my hands on his neck, the kiss is fast and passionate.
we break apart, breathless.
"you're welcome." he says.
i smile and lean on the balcony railing.
"why did you take so long to come into my life? why did you wait until i was eighteen?" i ask.
he leans on the railing next to me, "i waited because you deserved a less dangerous life. if you would have met me before you knew what my job was, you would have found out eventually.."
"you said you knew about me.. how?" i ask.
he takes a deep breathe, "i knew about you because i received a file on you.. it wasn't to kill you, though. your father wanted me to keep an eye on you and learn about you. if you want honesty, i've been watching you for a long time.. so many times i wished i wouldn't have had to be silent.. especially all those times you were crying on that hill, crying in general.. it broke my heart, vanessa."
"i'm so sorry you had to see me like that.. i know i'm still emotional, i just.. that was an especially rough time for me." i whisper.
he hooks an arm around my waist, "it's okay, love."
we both are quiet for a moment, listening to the air and the distant sounds of cars and music.
the air is slightly chilly, but it's perfect. the moon is shining bright & the skies are clear.
"what did you think when we met?" he asks.
i laugh, "i thought you were a total dick for fucking shooting me in the chest."
he laughs, a sound i enjoy very much.
"i can't lie, you were trying to be intimidating.. and at first, it worked. then, those ocean eyes of yours just looked right into me.. and i instantly felt something. it took forever to realize why. you kissed me.. and it felt amazing. i was terrified though.. and i still am. everyone i love and care about ends up getting hurt.. or they leave." i mumble.
he sighs, "you've probably heard the same damn things over and over.. hm.."
i face him and he places his hands on my neck.
he looks me directly in the eyes.
"vanessa.. listen to me, and i know you're good at that. find it in that big heart of yours to trust me.. you are so beautiful, smart, strong, kind.. and you're truly amazing. every second i spend with you is a dream come true to me. i know you're left with broken trust.. but please find a way to let me in. talk to me, communicate when something isn't right. we can make this work. i'm not leaving, and i mean that.. i'm not just throwing that around. i promise to work hard, to never leave you guessing.. to be the best man for you.. because that's what you deserve. i fall in love with you more and more each day & i am the luckiest guy to get to call you mine. please.. don't doubt yourself. i'm here & i'm staying." he says, never breaking eye contact with me.
tears rush down my cheeks and i rush into his arms as he holds onto me tightly.
"damien.. t-thank you so much." i say into his chest.
he moves me from his chest so i'm looking up at him again.
he smiles and uses his thumbs to wipe away the tears that had fallen.
he grins, "the pleasure is all mine."

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i was v shaky today.. but it wasn't a bad day. i'm v grateful for that.

if u suffer from a mental disorder or illness.. please know that ur valid & even though you don't get enough acknowledgement or validation for what you go through.. you are strong and i am proud of you for being here.

i think i'm gonna start doing gifs instead of pictures? idk haha

thank you for reading! xo

- adrianna