deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 15

songs :

• once in a lifetime - one direction
• angel - the weeknd
• madness - muse

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[vanessa's pov]
"no, you don't understand.. there has to be a mistake in the system or something? you have to be mixed up..." i try to find any possible explanation for this.
damien shakes his head, "that's the correct file, vanessa. i'm positive. janice has killed five people already.. she started a few weeks ago. younger people, too.. she's a threat. threats are to be.."
"eliminated. i know. thanks, damien." i finish his sentence & sit down in the chair next to me.
caleb has been sitting with his arms folded on the table with his head inside.
he hasn't said anything.. all i've gotten out of him is a jaw drop.
trust me.. i'm not upset over this nor would it be difficult for me.. i just worry about how he is handling this.. how he will handle it.
damien walks in the other room.
"caleb, you have to talk to me at some point." i whisper.
he lifts his head up. tears stream down his face.. and that breaks my heart. i hate seeing him sad, especially over her.
"vanessa.. i've gotten to know her & now i have to kill her.. i care about her." he mumbles.
i shake my head, "you don't have to be a part of this. no one expects you to."
he puts his face in his hands, "i just don't get it. she's so sweet & innocent. how could she have killed five people!?"
"i don't know.. but it happened. you know the bosses will come after us if we try to save her.. i don't have a choice, caleb. i have to do this." i say, standing up from my chair.
he takes a deep breathe and stares off into the distance. so much for that, i guess.
i walk into the next room where damien sits on his phone, sipping on a coffee.
"damien.. when does this case need to be completed?" i ask.
"tonight, love." he says, not breaking eye contact from his phone.
tonight? fuck! that's not a lot of time to prepare caleb at all.
i spin on my heel and walk back into the other room.
"do you want to say goodbye..?" i ask caleb.
he bites on his lip and stares at his hands.
"i don't know.." he whispers.
i nod & slowly walk to the door.
"caleb?" i ask.
he looks up at me.
"i'm sorry." i mumble.
he nods and puts his head back in his hands.
with that being said, i leave the warehouse and go home to get some sleep for tomorrow.

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i spend most of the day finding a way to prepare myself to break caleb's heart.
i'm in the warehouse & loading up my belt with all of my weapons.
caleb stands beside me, a blank expression on his face. i buckle my belt.
"are you okay?" i whisper so damien can't hear.
he shakes his head, "no."
i lean in & wrap my arms around him.
he holds me close and tucks his head into my shoulder. he runs a hand over my hair and takes deep breathes.
"i'm so sorry.. it's gonna be okay, i promise. are you sure you'll be alright here?" i ask.
i worry about him by himself sometimes.. he has a history that makes me afraid.
he slowly nods, "ready as i'll ever be.. i said my goodbyes. i'll be fine."
that's the last thing he says before walking into the gym. his head hangs low.
i feel terrible for being the one to make him feel like this.. but i really don't have a choice.
my inner self can't even enjoy this now.
i walk back by damien & sit next to him at the table.
"i'm sending you out in 5 minutes." damien says.
i take a deep breathe, "okay."
i sink back in my chair & take a moment to weigh out everything. caleb loves her.. loves this chick. i'm the one who has to do this.. who has to at least injure her & take her in.. i can't imagine what's running through his head right now but i really would like to know.
"i'll be right back." i tell damien before going to find caleb.
he stands in the corner of the gym, his earbuds in and his head down.
i walk up to him & pull his earbuds out. he gives me a look.. it's empty.. it's painful.
i wrap my arms around him & hold him tightly.
"i'm so sorry." i whisper.
he rubs my back softly. i'm only wearing a black tank top. his hands are warm from being in his sweatshirt pocket. i want to stay in his arms forever.
"vanessa, let's go!" damien's voice echoes throughout the gym.
it's dim so he can't see us.
there's a quiet between caleb & i.. i doubt he is going to say anything to me right now.
"i got to go.." i mumble.
i disconnect from our hug & walk to the exit of the gym.
"vanessa?" i hear caleb's voice echo.
i face him, "yeah?"
"be safe.. and.. and i love you." he croaks.
my heart rate speeds up. what? what!?
i smile, "i will.. i love you."
i then walk out of the gym and join damien in the other room.
"she just got home. jack is out there right now.. we got to go." he orders.
i slide my leather jacket on, "okay. let's go."
he holds the door open for me as we step into the cold. we walk briskly to the black escalade.
"no. vanessa, take your jeep. i'll stay close.. she might try to pull something. i'll be stealthy. jack & i will be right outside." he says, getting in the escalade.
i nod, running to my jeep.
i quickly slide into the drivers' seat and start the car.
i wait for damien to drive in front of me. he has the directions to her house.
when we pull up, i see jack in the corner by the trees. he's halfway in the ditch. nice parking job.
i laugh to myself and pull in her driveway.
"you got this." damien says into my earpiece.
i nod & exit my car. i walk up to the front door & don't spend time knocking.
i open the first door and pull out my gun.
i try to remember my training.. i focus my anger.. i channel it all.
i lift my combat boot & shove it into the door with all of my force.
the door flies open and slams into the wall behind it. i smile & pull out my gun.
"oh.. janice.." i call out.
it's oddly quiet. the house lights are all turned on.. but i don't hear anyone.
she's definitely home.. where could she be?
i come around the corner of the kitchen and scan across it. no one.
i turn around to go into the living room.
suddenly, i'm toppling to the floor. pain rushes to my head. i hear a frying pan drop to the ground.
are you fucking kidding!?
her petite self sprints out the back door.
"you little bitch!" i yell, standing up and running after her.
i hear a car door slam & then the engine.
fuck fuck fuck! i tap my earpiece twice.
"she's bolting!" i shout & run to my jeep as fast as possible.
damien clearly doesn't get my message in time. she pulls out of her driveway & speeds down the road.
i get in my jeep and speed out of her driveway. i'm close on the back of her car.
shitty car, too.
i lean out the window and attempt to shoot out her tires. i step down on the gas, smile spreading across my face.
this feels pretty damn good.
"you want my man, you fucking bitch?" i pull the trigger again.
it hits her back tire and she spins off into the small ditch. she pulls open her door and begins to run in the nearby trees.
what a bitch. damien is quick behind me. we jump out of our cars and run after her. her car is smoking as we pass by. whoops.
jack stays in his car. damien & i run into the forest & it's silent. of course she's going to hide.
we slow down and walk slowly, our guns aimed in front of us.
we listen for any sounds.. we watch for her.
then, a snow crunch.
i spin around and immediately shoot my gun, not caring about aiming at all.
i watch as the bullet flies into her leg & she falls to the ground.
she drops the knife she was carrying, too.
i laugh and grab the knife from the ground.
blood begins to stain the white snow & it's a quite lovely sight, to be honest.
"nice work." damien says to me, lifting her off the ground and carrying her out of the forest.
"vanessa, what the hell!?" she yells.
i grin, "i warned you not to fuck with me."

damien pushes her into the back of the escalade as blood pours down her leg.

play with fire & you get burned, honey.

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hey lovelies!! oOoOo

hope everyone is having a gr8 day!

i'm seeing the 1975 on sunday.. I AM SO EXCITED.

it feels insane to say that.. i'm not even emotionally prepared. today was interesting but idk..

thank you for reading! xo

- adrianna