deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 17

songs :

• haunt // bed - the 1975
• you made your bed (so lay in it) - travis garland
• she will be loved - maroon 5

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[vanessa's pov]
the sun shines peeks through his windows. we're laying in his bed.
his arm drapes over my bare back as i lean into his chest. i lift my head up & look around.
my phone begins to vibrate rapidly.
i reach over & pick it up and see that it's my mom.
i clear my throat & answer, "hi, mom!"
"honey, why are you at this giant house?" she asks.
this? THIS?
i nervously laugh, "mom, what are you talking about?"
"i was wondering where you went last night. i checked your iphone's location & i'm outside of this house." she says.
i hang up on her and throw my phone down, scrambling out of bed.
i grab my clothes from the floor and slide them on quickly. i look in the mirror & fix my hair.
damien sits up & looks at me confused.
"my mom is here." i blurt, rushing down the stairs.
the doorbell rings & i open the door.
"hey, mom.." i smile & lean against the doorframe.
"hi honey." she says, kissing me on the cheek.
she walks past me & invites herself in.
oh god.
"who's house is this?" she asks, looking around the living room.
"mine, m'am. it's lovely to meet you." damien says behind me as he comes down the stairs.
he's pulling down his black t-shirt over his toned torso as he walks up to her.
he holds out his hand, "i'm damien."
my mom is in shock. she shakes his hand & peers over his shoulder and mouths "oh my god" while gawking like an idiot. i face palm.
"vanessa didn't tell me she had a boyfriend?" my mom implies.
"oh-" i start.
damien stands next to me, "yeah, we just got together."
phew. good save.
i nod in agreement. my mom looks back and forth between us.
"how did you two meet?" she asks.
fuck fuck fuck.
"at a concert." damien answers.
he says it so simply.. it sounds completely believable.
she grins, "that's great. i'm happy for the both of you. as much as i'd love to stay & get to know you, damien.. i came here to ask my daughter what her plans are for her--"
"haha i think it's best if you are to be going now, mom. i'll call you & let you know." i try to get her mind off of it.
she doesn't stop, "honey, it's a big deal. your birthday only comes once a year."
fuck. now damien knows.. i really didn't want to make it a big deal.
"i actually organized a party for her. i was meaning to get in contact with you about it." damien explains.
holy fuck! what!?
he answers my thoughts, "your 18th birthday only happens once. i wanted to make it special for you."
he takes my hand in his & looks back to my mom.
"i will take care of your daughter. she deserves happiness. i'll message you later details on the party after vanessa gives me your number." he says with a big smile.
my mom smiles wide, "aww! i'm so excited!"
she runs up to me & kisses me on the cheek before leaving the house.
"i love you, be safe!" she shouts before closing the door behind her.
that was a rollercoaster.

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i show up to the warehouse with damien so i can go home in my jeep.
i watch caleb's car pull in and park next to mine.
he rushes out and runs up to me, "oh hell no you didn't."
"fuck you, caleb. you're a liar, you know that, right? i'm done with getting hurt because of you. you had your chance.. now leave me alone. you're my co-worker, that's it." i seethe.
i open my door & slide into the seat, pulling the seatbelt across me & clicking it in place.
he grips his head and slams his fist into the door of his car.
i'm tired of this.. the yes, no game.. the guessing if he's mine.. the wondering on where we stand. he left me before, he can do it again.
i have feelings for damien.. i'm falling for him faster & faster. i forgot what it feels like to be happy & to be truly. i haven't truly felt that in a long time..
i blow damien a kiss and mouth "thank you" to him before driving off.
it makes me feel awful & pathetic when i cry over caleb.. why can't i just move on? why can't i just be done with him? it hurts.. it hurts so much.
i love him.. and i'm dying inside.
after a while of driving & overthinking, i pull into the parking lot to my apartment.
my mom's car isn't to be found. i'm home alone.
i get inside & pick up my cat.
she purrs as she rubs her face against my cheek.
"i love you." i say, giving her a kiss before placing her back on the ground.
she meows loudly & runs to the kitchen. she's hungry.
i stand on my tiptoes to grab the bag of food on the top of our fridge.
as i pour it in her bowl, she meows excitedly and dives right in.
i laugh & put the bag back.
after a great night and a frustrating morning, i'm excited to shower.