deranged [sequel to unlovable]

part 11

songs :

• el chapo - skrillex
• the kill - 30 seconds to mars
• waiting - rl grime ft. skrillex & what so not

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[vanessa's pov]
the next morning i pull up to the warehouse with a whole new attitude.
i'm wearing skin tight leggings with knee high black boot heels. i wear a grey t-shirt with my black leather jacket.
i spent extra long on my hair & makeup this morning & i must admit-- i look bomb as fuck.
i strut into the warehouse & walk right past both damien & caleb.
they give each other a look and then look back at me. i walk into the other room and fill my holster with weapons.
a grin spreads across my face as i walk back into the main room where caleb & damien are.
"file." i demand.
damien doesn't ask any questions and hands me the file i need.
"don't kill this one, please." damien says.
i grin & bite my lip, "you know i can't promise that."
i lean forward and kiss damien.
i can feel caleb's eyes on us.
damien is surprised by the action as well, but he realizes what's happening & kisses me back.
we disconnect & he smiles.
"we have a case tonight. it's a big one, too. don't be long, i'll explain everything when you get back." damien says.
i simply nod & walk out of the warehouse, giving caleb a wink before doing so.
the door opens again behind me.
"are you serious?" caleb asks.
i spin around and glare at him, "what do you want now? want to use me again?"
he sighs, "vanessa.. i didn't use you."
"hm.. i'd say fucking around with me & my feelings and then backing out is a pretty great example of using someone. honestly? fuck you & i'm over it. hope you're getting better sex." i click my tongue and turn around again, walking to my jeep.
he groans loudly. the metal door opens & slams shut. good. be mad.
i get in the drivers seat and speed away.

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this case is too simple. a woman killed 3 people & she's a yoga instructor.
oddly enough, i don't feel like making someone shed blood today.
i've been used, cheated on, lied to & hurt over and over again.
today, i'm feeling pretty generous. yesterday was a great relief for my stress & anger.
i hold down my earpiece until i hear siri answer.
i tell my siri to call damien. he answers quickly.
"yes, vanessa?" damien says into the phone.
"do you think i could handle this one by myself?" i ask.
"like.. the body, too?" he asks.
i smile, "yes."
"sure, i guess. be safe." he says.
i laugh, "thanks, damien."
i hang up the phone and pull into the yoga studio parking lot.
it's ironic how she's a yoga instructor.. you're all about peace & relaxation & you killed 3 innocent people? yikes.
when i get inside, i try to cover my belt with my jacket. i don't want to freak anyone out.
i tell the lady at the front desk that i'm here for hailey's class.
"you're early.. and you also don't have your gear. but.. first door on the right." she says, pointing down the hallway.
i smile & nod and follow her instructions.
when i step inside, it's dim & sure enough, hailey sits on the floor in a stretch.
"sorry to interrupt." i say, grabbing my handcuffs as quietly as possible.
i grab her as swiftly as possible and lock them around her wrists.
she stands up quickly and tries to kick at me. this one is a fighter for sure.
i grab the mace from my holster & give her a small spray to the face.
she tops kicking & starts yelling.
fuck fuck fuck.
i pull her to the back of her studio. the fire exit leads to an alley.
suddenly, the studio door opens.
"don't get caught.."
damien's voice plays in my head.
i put my hand over her mouth & lead her out of the fire exit.
it's cold & the stairs are slippery. i step down them quickly and continue to pull her along with me.
then, people are yelling inside.
i break into a sprint & make her run with me.
we finally reach the parking lot. i open the back door of my jeep in a swift motion and push her into the backseat.
i shut the door & climb into the drivers seat.
"what the hell!? who are you?" she yells as i drive away as fast as i can.
several employees are running towards my car.
i pull out of the parking lot just in time to avoid them. that was so close.
"my name is vanessa. nice to meet you. i'm only doing my job. sorry." i try to be as kind as possible after i just fucking maced her.
i glance at her in the mirror. her eyes are bloodshot.
"please.. don't turn me in. i have kids.." she begs.
fuck vanessa, you cannot have sympathy.
stop it stop it stop it.
"i'm so sorry.. i don't have a choice." i say.
i think i hear her crying.. fucking hell.
i pull up to the warehouse. i would let her go.. i really would.. but damien will know i did & i'll be in more trouble than just with him..
i just can't.
i hesitantly push my earpiece twice.
"in the parking lot." i say as damien answers.
the metal door whips open & both damien & caleb run outside.
i get out of my jeep and take a deep breathe:
"are you okay? how much blood did you get in your car?" damien asks, running his hands over my shoulders.
i shake my head, "she has children, damien. i just feel bad.. i don't know. there's no blood, i didn't hurt her except for when i maced her."
he nods & calls his bosses.
they show up within seconds and take her away.
caleb looks into my eyes and runs his hands along my face, "are you okay?"
i lean into his touch.. he's so familiar.
vanessa. stop it. right now.
i back away from him, "no.. but thank you."
damien returns to us after he finishes talking to his bosses.
"both of you are to go home & change into formal party clothes. we're going to a pretty crazy party tonight.. except, most everyone in the place are highly wanted criminals. we'll go at 8. our whole team is going.. be here by 7:30." damien informs.
i nod, "okay, sounds good."
i get in my jeep & pull away quickly. i'm not up for conversations right now.. i just want to get ready for the night to follow.

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it's 7:30 & i'm pulling up to the warehouse.
my hair is soft & straightened. i'm wearing a lace dress with black heels.
you might wonder.. vanessa.. why the hell are you wearing a short dress in winter?
fuck winter, i'll wear what i want.
i walk into the warehouse and as soon as i do, all eyes dart to me.
i'm one of the only girls on the team? wow.
there's guys everywhere, all wearing suits & looking really great.
they stop staring when damien walks up to me.
"you look.. wow. vanessa you look absolutely beautiful." he says, eyeing me up and down.
i smile & tuck a piece of hair behind my ear, "thanks, damien. you look great as well." i say, carefully trailing my eyes around the room.
i don't want to make it obvious that i'm looking for caleb. finally, i spot him across the room standing in the doorway.
he's wearing a suit. he looks so fucking hot..
i bite down on my lip, "i'll be right back, okay?"
caleb's eyes connect with mine as i walk towards him slowly.
what do i even say to him after everything..
i don't know if having a conversation is the best idea so i decide to keep things short & sweet.
i smile, "you look great, caleb."
"thank you.. you look stunning, vanessa." he says.
"thank you."
my father stands in the front of the room, "alright, listen up. no funny business tonight. you are all to lay low & stay quiet. if they have a white pendant on their chest, they are the enemy.. avoid them at all costs until i give you the word. you are then to do whatever you can to get them handcuffed. there will be few civilians mixed in.. so you don't have to worry about that part. most importantly.. i want all of this team coming out of there, alive. they will be armed.. be cautious. jack is coming around to hand out handcuffs & rope. let's get these people, guys."
the room erupts in cheers & hollers.
i look at caleb who is already looking at me.
everyone is cheering but i can tell that he's thinking the same thing.
i have a bad feeling about this.. and i can tell he does too.
he confirms my thoughts when i feel his fingers intertwining with mine.

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oOOoOoOo PARTY TIME!!!

keep going strong :)

this place i'm at is so beautiful.

thank you for all of your support & thank you for reading!! xo

- adrianna