Second Chances

29. Half A Heart

••A Week Later••

I sighed and collected my things preparing to leave the library. Boredom won't even begin to explain my mood. This past week my life's been so dull. Since me and Ant don't really speak anymore things have been chill.

Not the good kind of chill either. Like when we argued at the party and weren't speaking for that little while, it didn't feel like this. This time feels...final. Sad to say but that's exactly how it feels to me.

You asked for this Justine.

I haven't been emotional, I'm not even mad at him or anything like that. I just feel like things are going back to the way they used to be before he popped up in my life again. I feel normal, I guess.

Actually I lied I don't know how I feel. I miss him but then again I don't because this way he can't hurt me anymore. Things will never be able to just go back to the way they used to be so I guess that was a lie too.

I won't be able to erase the last few months that we've shared together because it's completely impossible to forget him. I think that's what bothers me the most. It seems like a piece of me is missing. I hate feeling like this.

You wanted this.

So much has happened between us that we wouldn't even be able to be friends anymore. Emotions got involved. That can either turn your friendship into something more or destroy it all together and well you see what it did to ours.

You let it.

It would be a blessing if things would just work out in our favor but that just might be too good to be true. With a sigh I pulled my phone out to text Remi and see where she was. Turns out she had my phone in her purse.

She said I gave it to her to hold so I wouldn't loose it. I don't remember but it's whatever. Within a few minutes she texted me back telling me she was in her dorm with Shaun and August.

My heart jumped as I read the message over again. Ant was there? Why? Well not why but why? Were they hanging out without me? I mean it would make sense because I feel like it would be awkward if I were there.

Well that's a risk I'm not willing to take. I'll just chill in my room until they leave. Maybe watch a couple movies and call Avy. Yep that sounds like a plan. Once I made it I took a nice shower.

After that I watched Twilight on Netflix. A few years ago I used to love the Twilight movies. I popped some popcorn and got comfy in my bed.

••••

Once the movie was over I picked up my phone to FaceTime my Avy baby before she went to sleep. I smiled when she picked up but it quickly went away when I saw her sad little face.

"Aves what's wrong?"

She sniffed and wiped her eyes. "I miss you mommy. Daddy not answer the phone for me no more. I'm all alone."

I sighed trying not to let my anger get the best of me. "You're not all alone baby I promise. And I'm gonna talk to daddy for you ok?"

She nodded. "But when are you coming back?"

"Avy I come see you every weekend you know that love. It's Thursday so I'll be there tomorrow night."