The Randomness That Is Me

Once Again

Once again she found herself here
Her friend pulled away by the one she feared

She was at a ceremony, so she couldn't cry
So she made hard her heart and tried

She looked at her friend, a few seats away
And choked back a sob, her feelings scattered in an array

The feelings so mixed and a mess
She tried to calm down and relieve the stress

She knew this was stupid, to act like this
But she couldn't control it when her emotions were amiss

Now the girl sat down in a chair
And glanced again at the boy who was always so fair

She noticed his smile as he looked to his right
And finally realized how big was her plight

She let out a sigh and wiped away the tears
For she came to realize that these were her fears

The girl was closer in age, and knew him before she did
So she did what she did best and hid

Her feelings buried once more
As she gazed at the metaphorical door

She'd never get in, she now knew
The door was closed, and that wasn't new

So she said her goodbyes and gave a wave
As she turned and walked away

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Fine

Fine
Such a simple word
But often used to hide
Hide the truth
Hide your feelings
Hide away anything that could hurt

So when you ask me what's wrong,

I'm fine
Help me I'm dying on the inside

I'm fine
My tears are on the inside

I'm fine
I want to die

I'm fine
I'll be out of your hair someday

I'm fine
Just let me be depressed

I'm fine
I won't drag you down with me

I'm fine
Nothing lasts forever

I'm fine
Help me find a reason to live

I'm fine
Help me...

So anytime you're worry about me, just know I'm
Fine

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Guys... I know you want to help me. But sometimes you have to walk alone on the road that is life.
I wrote this for one reason.
Not for pity
Not for attention
Not for kindness

I wrote this to vent

That's all this is.

One small vent about some girl on the internet's pathetic life.

That's it.