Unsaid Things

Old Habbits

We hung out today and it was the greatest thing ever, we just sat and talked. We went out to your truck and just sat and talked for 3 1/2 hours straight without a care in the world. I laid on your lap for most of it and you played with my hair and looked into my soul with those beautiful brown eyes of yours that I fell in love with. We talked about life, about an "us" again, and lots of other things. I miss you so much and you don't have any idea... I loved it when you would tuck a stray hair behind my ear or just when you played with it. We held each other for about an hour, and I miss that. 

We used to talk all the time and now, we only talk once in awhile... I hate it, because I miss you. I miss you a lot. I can still remember the first time I came over to your house, our freshmen year. Then we fell in love and... I haven't fallen back out yet... I still love you. I always will, no matter who I'm with. I can still taste you from the kiss we shared earlier... I was getting mad about something and you looked right t me and kissed me in such a passionate way, I've never experienced before... I loved it, I love your kisses though so that's not a surprise. 

I wish you could see how much I care about you, how much I worry... I stayed up till 4:30 in the morning the day you had surgery because I was so scared for you. I was scared the day you rode, I paced a clear path in my carpet. I have always been scared when you ride, but I will always support you in it because I know how much you love it. I don't want them to take it from you and I wish your best friend would pay more attention to you and rodeo instead of her... I know it hurts you and if there was something I could do for you, I'd do it. 

I hate seeing you in pain and I know how badly your arm hurts... I've prayed so many times for God to give the pain to me and take it away from you but... It hasn't happened yet... I wish I could take it from you, I would if I could... All I want to see you is happy. I love your smile, how soft your eyes get... You are truly happy. But only when you are around, talking about, or getting ready for a rodeo. 

I know you don't miss me, but I miss you more then you could ever know... I miss everything about you... And I'd give anything to have you back. 

              ~Unsaid Things to a boy I'm in love with