Lost Souls

Chaper 21

                                                                              Venus 

4:00 am, that's what my alarm clock read next to the bed side . It was a Monday that means it's back to another hell filled week of school. Which means having to face Amber 'what a bit-' calm down Venus . I took a deep breath closing my eyes going back to my thoughts. I have to face fawn , which will break my heart just seeing how hurt she is . On top of all of that i still have to do school work. Welcome to my life , what a life it is.
5:00 am , still lying awake just waiting for the push of motivation to jump out of this bed. My mind has been going crazy all night so sleep wasn't in my deck of cards tonight . I can't remember the last time I had a decent night sleep, my mind was just all over the place ever since the day I moved here . I have made unexpected friends, attended a church and seemed to get myself in a big mess of other people's relationship problems in the matter of just little over a month. Oh where did the time go?
5:30 am , My alarm finally went off pushing myself to get up to start another day of God knows what. I slowly stood up instantly sending a stinging sensation to my leg. Looking down to see the bruised up knee I began running my fingers across the cuts remember the guy's soft gentle hands as he helped me up from the sharp sidewalk. His hazel brown eyes calmed me down as the stinging pain suddenly disappeared. "Ian Frost " I whispered under my breath as the moment played like a slow motion movie in my head never missing a detail as I starred at my unfortunate knee as if it was a blessing that I fell into him that day . A small smirk started to creep on my face before I realized that I was fantasizing over a guy that I didn't even know, shaking my head getting up from my bed putting on a pair of tight blue jeans and a navy blue plaid flannel. I sighed knowing that I wasn't going to try to doll myself up today, I just threw my curly mop of hair into my signature bun. I walked over to my night stand looking at my reflection seeing the same old Venus, but something was different. I stared at myself confused as I tried to read who I was, as I just stood there the sun started to shined through my bedroom window onto me making my reflection more bright . My whole body felt as if I had a yellow aroma of sun around my body, I was refreshed somehow. It  was like a new profound motivation was building inside me like a fire. I picked my backpack up from across the room as I broke the memorization of myself  just brushing it off as I walked out of my room . No one was awake it was still pretty early, school didn't start for another hour but I was wide awake and there was no going back to sleep . I quickly and quietly creeped out the door.   It felt good to feel the cool breeze on my skin  it made me feel more alive. The sky was a mix of bright colors as the sun was slowly awaking up , meeting with the night sky. My steps were slow enjoying the morning peace and the calming atmosphere before life started to go crazy. My mind was clear as I focused on my surroundings as the school suddenly crept into view as people were meeting for another long week together. They exchanged hugs and fist bumps and some would send dirty looks depending on what happened on the weekend. Me.. I just kept on walking not really in the mood for any type of socializing. My locker was my first destination as I opened it up taking out the stuff I would need for the day ahead. A huge group of football players and their poor little cheerleaders came dragging their feet down the hallway. They felt the need to make sure they were seen and heard by everyone and this morning was one of the those unfortunate days . I rolled my eyes as they all made their way down the hall as the guys would hype themselves up for the big football game this Friday and the girls gossiped about the hellish things they did after Friday nights game. I slammed my locker door shut as I took a deep breath trying to block everyone out , I took my eyes off my books that weighed my arms down to watch them all pass by but one face caught my attention. It was the the guy from my falling incident this weekend , the one that helped me. I had no intention in talking to him, as if he would even remember me. I am the new girl, the nobody in this school, there was. no way he would even take a second wasting his time on me.  Especially in front of his juiced up friends. " Venus, nice to see that you're walking smoothly after our big accident." he winked at me,  my body screamed to respond, but my head kept whispering he was a cocky jock putting on a show. Claire was standing right next to me looking amazing as always with a big smile on her face "you know him ? " I looked at her confused taking my eyes off Ian Frost as he walked away with his pack. " what?" I responded.   She laughed looking at me as I just stood there confused then her laugh. suddenly faded away "oh wait your serious, who doesn't know him he is the star quarterback of Church hill high" she said with confidence . My eyes got wide again "oh I didn't know that , I just thought -" the bell rang signing the students class was going to start , Claire smiled intrigued at what I was going to say "tell me more later " she yelled down the hall before disappearing into a class. I just shrugged as I made my way to class just thinking about Ian and why Claire would be talking to me , we never were that close.   My first two classes went by pretty fast seeing that the teachers only talk about their lives . Off to my next class which I have with Amber so I definitely wasn't looking forward to it. I wasn't in a rush so I took my sweet time walking the empty halls until I passed the girls bathroom hearing the sounds of crying . I stopped just listening for a second as I put my ear to the door . 'I know that cry , that's Fawn ' I thought to myself as I opened up the door to see her sitting there up against the wall as she weeped into her hands . I quickly grabbed a paper towel writing 'out of order ' on the door , I cautiously walked over to her sitting down next to her pulling her to me holding her as she cried ." Why are you here " she sobbed looking at me as mascara rolled down her pink cheeks . I sighed looking at her "because friends don't leave friends in times like this , I'm not gonna leave you " she quickly stood up wiping her tears "I'm so stupid no one cares " she cried looking at herself in the mirror. "That's not true Fawn " I whispered looking at her seeing how hurt and broken she was . "Why don't you just go talk to Lucas and Amber, they tell you more than they ever tell me " she yelled before grabbing her stuff running out the door , I tried to run after her but she was already too indulged in a moment of depression for me to try and pull her out . My heart filled with such a sorrow for her,  I took a deep breath "why me ? " I stuttered walking out of the bathroom. I decided to just go straight to lunch even tho my appetite was no where to be found I just need to get away . I walked to the cafeteria as people piled in getting the fake frozen food ,  quickly I started to make my way outside to get some air as two boys stopped me . One boy stood there nervously tapping his foot, he seemed scared to. open his mouth. I could. relate to that. This boy had short brown hair and soft brown eyes. The other boy behind him just stood there looking at his friend and was laughing little to himself, he was a tan guy with dark brown hair with stern blackish eyes . This situation was starting o get awkward, no. one was speaking and I wasn't going to be the. first one to crack, I just wanted fresh air . The nervous one spoke "your Fawns friend right?" His soft eyes were filled with worry standing  there with his hands deep in his pockets. "Um yes , do I know you ? " I said as my eyebrows furrowed crossing my arms looking at him . He looked at his friend then back at me "I'm Andrew and this is Noah , I'm in Fawns acting class and I have noticed that she has been upset lately and hasn't been to class .. and I wanted to know if she was ok ? " he said quickly again his friend just stood there as if he had no care in the world . I sighed looking at Andrew I could tell he was nervous was he bounced his foot up and down faster than before. "Fawn is just going through lot right now " I whispered remembering her sobbing in the bathroom before running off . Andrew's foot suddenly stopped now his only emotion pouring from his face was sadness.  "oh okay well tell her not to worry about anything just focus on getting better " he tried to smile before walking off as his friend followed behind. Taking a deep breath I knew in that moment things would not be getting better. I stood there leaning up against the wall just staring at the crowds of people thinking. Out of all these people only one person saw how broken and hurt a girl was . Everyone else just kept on with their lives as one girl's life seemed to be falling apart and only one shy , nervous guy saw how much she was hurting and took the time to care . I hope I'm not the only one that see that , in this whole crowd of people.... I hope I'm not the only one.