Lost Souls

Chapter 39

Venus's P.O.V

I wasn't ready to step foot into school today, I was just drained of energy. Their was just so much going on, I just needed to sleep until it was all over. My big sweatshirt hung low to my knees of my gray cozy sweatpants.My mood showed in my clothes , this was the last thing I needed right now. I haven't heard from Lance in quite sometime and I mean I don't blame him I broke his heart and choose the star quarterback which was definitely a huge mistake. Ian was the last of all people I wanted to see today , I would do anything not to face him today. The thought of him kissing another girl just made me sick to stomach and the way he almost kissed me not even the night before.

I took a deep breath as I pushed the doors open , kids were storming the halls talking about their amazing weekend filled with drama and after parties from homecoming. When I started my way to my locker, I could feel burning eyes on me. The girl who punch one of the best cheerleaders at homecoming , then disappeared with the star football player. I expected to get some interesting looks, I was the talk of the weekend , but none of them knew the real stuff that caused that crazy night. I kept on walking not even acknowledging all the stupid kids who only cared about themselves and their popularity. I reached my locker quickly opening it throwing all my unwanted papers in it until I noticed a unfamiliar blue piece of construction paper. I curiously unfolded the paper and the moment I saw who it was from my heart raced out of my chest.

Dear Venus,

Please meet me on the bleachers by the football field at the end of school.. I think we need to talk :)

Love, Ian

P.S I hope your hand is doing better, really glad I was able to fix it up

P.P.S I know that small black truck anywhere ......

Reading the note made me super nauseous , he knew I was their when he was with that girl, watching him kiss her with no thought of what happened the night before. He didn't care so why shouldn't I care enough to meet him today. My anger just boiled in me , like a part of me can't believe he has the nerve to just tell me to meet him after he knows what he did. I crumble up the note and shove it in my pocket slamming my locker shut. I rolled my eyes just thinking about Ian and that stupid girl, I was so focus on my thoughts and I walked not even noticing that someone was trying to talk to me.

Some girl gently touched my shoulder as I snapped out of my gaze and stopped walking. I turn to see the same girl from Ian's last night. She had her blonde hair all nice and tight in a ponytail that swayed back and forth. Her cheer outfit tight against her skin , maybe little to tight around some parts. A part of me wanted to punch her perfect face but another part was kinda enviest how beautiful and neat she was. Bottom line was why is she stopping me like what nerve she has , I could feel their a very ugly look on my face and I didnt care. " Can I help you " I asked as you could feel the sting in my voice as I tighten my fist by my side. She gave a smirk as she puffed out her small slim lips " I just wanted to let you know as a nice person, that your friend Lance I believe his name his has been going around sell drugs and other stuff" A part of me kinda laughed thinking that she was joking , Lance selling drugs ? No way. " Who are you " I questioned chuckling in angry as I crossed my arms scrunching my eyebrows together. " Im Autumn... head cheerleader....Im dating Chad the lineback or whatever." I just stood there staring at her , not impressed as I lightly yawned. " Well anyways Chad has been buying some stuff off of Lance And I just wanted to let someone know maybe you could help him or stop him" She turned around as the football gang started to coming down the hall as we both kinda panicked. I definitely didn't feel like dealing with Ian right now and on top of that see me talking to the girl who he was smacking lips with. She quickly turned around saying one last thing before she got caught talking to a no one like me" You didn't hear it from me". Before I could say anything she was gone , I turned around as I started to talk right the lunch room thinking about she said. Could Lance really be selling drugs , he was always been such a great drugs is impossible. Autumn could be lying to,I don't know why,  she already got what I wanted. Plus she his cheating on her boyfriend with Ian, the girl is pretty much living a lie. You can really pick them Ian I thought laughing to myself doing my best not to thinking about him. As I walked through the lunch room I found the same spot I always sit in with Andrew and Noah. Every since I ran away from Claire and Lindsay that one day I have been sitting with them every since . They were like a breath of fresh air , no drama or anything. I took a seat sighing as I just laid my head down on the lunch table taking a deep breath, I could feel Andrew and Noah eyes glued on me , " Venus what's wrong with you " Noah chuckled poking my side making me jump up . I laughed little " it has already been a long day and I'm ready for the day to be over " Andrew nodded his head in agreement shoving more food into his mouth. I popped a grape into my mouth as I looked around seeing Fawn staring at Andrew. It was so adorable how she drooled over him and they both don't even know it . I kicked Andrew under the table making him look up and see Fawn staring at him. He returned it with a big cheesy smile and a small wave , what dorks they were . " Andrew you really need to start pulling some moves like what her to class or something " I laughed staring at him as I saw the blood rush to his cheeks as he shrugged " I never really get the chance to " he focused on his food not looking up . Just like it was queued Fawn got up from her table and started to walk but I stopped her " Fawn come sit with us " I gave her a big smile as I moved Andrews backpack away from his side as Fawn took a seat next to him. " Fawn this is Noah " I point to the tan quite boy next to me as they had a quick hand shake " I had heard some much about you , nice to meet you " Noah smiled as he winked at Andrew. Andrew and Noah went back to talk about who knows what . I looked over at Fawn seeing that her nerves and anxiety started to kick in as she looked around to find a way out . " what did you eat today " I asked her knowing that she hasn't been eat lately as her body became skinny and frail. She looked at me and quickly looked away " fruit " I knew she was lying but I wasn't going to make a big deal in front of Andrew and Noah at the moment. Andrew and Fawn exchange some words as I just looked around knowing that as soon the bell rings I would have to make the decision to go see Ian or not . I knew he would be sitting there waiting on the bleachers in the cold winter air . It broke my heart seeing him their with that girl , that kiss belong to me . I sighed as the bell rang through the lunch room as I got up knowing deep down I needed those answers from him. I slowly made my way to the bleacher as the cold air hit skin , my heart leaping out of my chest as I got slowly. My whole body was shaking as I walked up the bleachers seeing him sitting there all perfect with his chestnut hair blowing in the breeze and his muscles arm tight to his sweatshirt. My heart sadden knowing once I walk up those bleacher this could all end here . I sighed slowly walking closer and closer to my doom , I was to afraid to look up and see that those brown eyes that just draw me in every time I just glance . I took a seat no to close to him but I could still feel the seat from his body . " Vee I know you were at my house yesterday, and I'm sure you saw enough " he started to explain but I cut him off " you were kissing her literally kissing her , you almost kissed me the night before . Saw enough? No I saw everything and saw right through your perfect guy act " I kinda lost it as I stared at the football field not daring to look at his face . I wanted to understand but I couldn't I want him so bad " I'm sorry Venus I really am I never meant to hurt you . She showed up at my house after homecoming and she was terrible drunk I couldn't let her drive home so I let her stay. Yes she is ex girlfriend but seriously I ding her I'm just trying to figure everything out right now . I seriously am so lost and that kiss didn't mean anything " he cried to me as I felt him reach for my hand as his warm skin laid against him . I looked over as his brown eyes looked into Mine as I felt my tears start to roll down my cheeks I wanted to let it all go and forgive him but the image of him kissing her was burnt into my head . I pulled my hand away and stood up " I can't do this , my whole life is a mess I don't need more " I cried knowing my heart was break as I took my last look into his sad eyes as I walked away .

The hardest part wasn't walking away but turning around knowing he wasn't chasing me is what hurt the worst .