Lost Souls

Chaper 44

Fawns POV

The night sky was full of diamonds, it lit up the world making it some kind of beautiful, maybe even such a beauty the world didn't deserve. As I stared at the dark atmosphere above me thoughts flooded my mind, Lance, Venus, my grandpa and I hate to even let the horrid name into to mind over and over but Lucas. I didn't have anyone to talk to, or anyone to tell the things I heard about Lance, I wanted to vent to the person who forced their way into my life but, she was no where to be found. So, I sit here in complete silence the only thing that I heard was the voice in my head, memories and anything that scared my soul.

" Fawn, someone is at the door for you" Scott said entering my room,
" is it a guy? Girl? What do they look like, come on give me something to work with" I tried to joke, " it's a guy, he's buff and I think his name is Ian or something along those lines" he shrugged walking away from my door.

Confused on why Ian would be at my door I hurried down the steep stairs and straight to the door, I took a deep breathe before opening it, who knows what he's gonna say.
" hi" I say softly, something was wrong, his eyes had bags under them and they only spoke sadness to me.
" hey uh, I know this is unusual but I have some not so great news, and given what I've heard you're used to news like this" Ian looked down before taking a step back gesturing that I come outside for this. Biting the inside of my cheek I took a step out of the only safe place I had. Slowly I shut the door and sat on the step next to the boy in despair.
" Tonight I heard my dad talking, and he wouldn't really answer any of my questions but Venus' brother died tonight. It's bad Fawn, it's really bad and I don't think she has anywhere to go. Venus is down at the station right now, I believe there is going to be a pretty big investigation by how my dad was talking. I guess whatever is going on has been going on for awhile." he looked into my big hazel eyes looking for some kind of hope, what he didn't know is I'm the wrong person for that.
" I- I knew her home life was horrible, but I didn't know the extent. Ian I really don't even know what to say" I choked, it was as the words were ripped from my throat. I couldn't think of anything , I have heard so many things today that everything seems so surreal. Shrugging I tried to open my mouth but still nothing seemed to come out. I swallowed hard getting ready to speak when Ian decided to break the silence. " I think maybe she just needs a friend, could you maybe come up to the station?" My heart was pounding, My anxiety was rising and I'm really not sure why. I couldn't seem to grasp why such a simple task felt like weights on my shoulders, I should want to be there but, I'm scared. I don't know what to say and I don't have any advice. My head begged me to say no, there was no way I was prepared to give tis type of comfort. 

"sure, let me tell my grandpa" 

Getting up from the porch step I took a deep breath walking in the house. I found my Grandpa explaining to him the situation, I knew he was going to let me go. He wouldn't even think twice about it, he always helped people in need. He was so special. " Fawn, please be carful and call me if you need me, if she needs she can stay here" my Grandpa said as he was putting his pudding cup in the garbage. I smiled sweetly at him nodding then walking out the door to meet Ian, still, my heart was racing, everything in my body told me that I would just make things worse. But, I knew I had to go, in fact, I owe this to her.
Ian's taste in music definitely didn't match mine, it was the punk rock kind of music, the teenager trying to figure out who they are and hating their life kind of songs. I looked at him and couldn't help but laugh a bit.
" what?" He questioned,
" oh nothing, just a guy like you doesn't seem like you'd listen to this kind of music" I shook my head smiling then looking out the window,
" you know Fawn, I'm not just that popular quarterback, I do have a soul" he looked over at me then back on the road. I'm sure he was a good guy deep down, I really just didn't care too much to know him like other people.
" everyone has a soul Ian, yours was just different than I expected." I laughed a little bit again shaking my head as we pulled up to the police station. The station has been here for years and years, even before I was born, it was old and rustic looking. Definitely not a model of this century. Taking a deep breathe I stepped down from Ian's huge red, old truck. Now is the time to put my advice skills to the test, or, at least some kind of comforting skill.

Walking into the old station filled with cops I scanned the room for the dark haired girl who spent so much time on everyone else she never gave a minute to herself, and that's when I found her. Venus was hugging her knees looking straight up at the ceiling with her eyes closed, it seemed as she was talking, I think she was actually praying. Something I sure haven't done in a long time. Slowly walking over to her I heard a high pitched voice, the voice was yelling something, and every time she yelled Venus squeezed her eyes shut harder. I couldn't help but guess that the voice had to be Venus's mother. She never talked about her family much, but, what I do know about them is, that she was very close with her little brother. She took care of him like he was her own, she looked out for him, his big sister was basically his mother.
" hey" I said raspy as I took a seat next to her, before she could say anything she wrapped her arms around me completely breaking down, at first I wasn't sure what to do, I didn't know what to say other than don't worry I'm here, so, that's what I said over and over holding her as her salty tears drenched my shirt. I've never seen Venus cry, I've never truly seen her sad until now. I don't know how she took care of me so fast knowing exactly what to do because I'm definitely lost in this chaotic situation.

" I failed him Fawn, I failed Jace, I was all he had and now he's gone and I wasn't there to stop my moms boyfriend. I just ignored everything and I forgot how much he needed me" she croaked out,
" Venus, this isn't your fault" I said quickly looking into her eyes,
" yes it is! You don't know! It is my fault Fawn! I wasn't there to protect him, it should of been me!" She screamed, Ian must of heard her because he came rushing in trying to calm her. He went to grab her cold, pale, shaking hand but she ripped it away from him quickly running her fingers through her mess of hair.
" what can't you guys not see? And why would you understand? My little brother was killed by my moms psycho boyfriend. I never thought my brother would try to jump in and be the hero! He's too little, my mom should've been protecting him, I should have been there. I knew they fought, but I didn't think it'd be like this! Jace tried, he fought so hard for my mom. My moms boyfriend beat the hell out of him with a baseball bat and killed him, no remorse he just beat a child. My mom did nothing, she watched and all this because she was too coward to protect my little brother instead of herself. " she fell to the floor bursting into tears. Ian and I both looked at each other running to hold her, there was nothing you could say to this, what happened was an evil act but it wasn't her fault. Now, she lays in our arms believing she's the one who could of stopped it when we all know she probably would of been dead too.

We sat on the station floor for a long time, no words, Venus's tears said enough. What was going on around us wasn't fair, and we couldn't do anything to stop it. The devil was praying on everyone around me, and most of the time he was winning.