Sing To Me While I'm Dying

Chapter Ten

"Mom?" I called as I stepped into her room. She smiled, but didn't answer. "How do you feel?" I ask.

"Horrible." I gasp and she glares at me, "What did you expect me to say? Better? I'm dying Vie!" she spat at me making me back up a few steps. Her glare softened and I thought she was going to apologize, but she gasped and the heart monitor started to beep quickly. Nurses and doctors rushed into the room. They crowded around her blocking my view of my mother. I couldn't hear anything other then the chilling endless beep of the hear monitor that signaled the end of my mother's life.

I awoke to the sound of knocking on my door. It opened to reveal Lizzy smiling at me. "Breakfast is ready dear." she said happily I smiled and said I would be down in a minute. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and slipped out of the bed. I rifled through my bag until I found something to wear. I pulled it on and checked my reflection in the mirror. I had a bad case of bed head. I groaned and put my hair in a pony tail. That would have to do for now. I thought tiredly. I walked down the stairs and saw Jasper sitting at the table swaying tiredly.

"You look as tired as I do," I said smiling.

"You have bed head." he said laughing at my hair.

"So do you," I retorted pointing to his messy hair. He attempted to fix it, but only managed to make it worse. I laughed and sat down opposite him. Leo walked in not looking tired at all.

"How are you not tired?" Jasper asked looking amazed.

"I guess I'm a morning person, which, you two are not." he said looking at us laughing. I shook my head and he sat next to me. Lizzy came out carrying two plates of eggs and bacon. She placed one in front of me then Jasper. She went back into the kitchen and came out with one more for Leo.

"Aren't you having some?" I ask her.

"I already ate." she said happily.

"I don't get it, how can someone be a morning person?" I ask scrunching up my nose.

"I don't know." Jasper said laughing.

"My mom was, before she got sick, she would always wake me up early claiming that I should be happy with her." I said laughing remembering when my mom did that. I would trade anything and everything to get those days back.

"Do you still want us to go to the hospital with you dear? You don't have to-" Lizzy said coming back into the room.

"I know, I still want you to come." I said cutting her off.

"Okay, but if you change your mind-"

"I won't, I want you to meet my mom." I said smiling, but I could tell it wasn't fooling anyone.

"Fine, eat up dear, you are too thin already." I smiled and looked down. I had forgotten that having a mother take care of you felt this way. I had been taking care for mom since she got sick. She tried to care for me, but she couldn't.

"You okay Vie?" Jasper asked looking at me.

"Yeah, I just forgot what that felt like."

"What felt like?" Leo asked.

"Being taken care of," I answered softly.

"Me too," Jasper said quietly. I looked up and smiled.

"No more lies," I whispered to Jasper. He nodded.

"No more lies." we finished our food and cleared our plated quickly before Lizzy saw us and did it herself. When it was time to leave I felt my hands shaking. What if they saw how sick my mom was and decided to leave me all alone. I know Jasper had already seen her,, but she was getting worse everyday. The car ride seemed shorter then usual. I felt someone grab my hand. "Vie, are you sure you want to do this?" Jasper asked looking at me with worried eyes. I nodded. "We're here." he said quietly. I slid out of the car and wiped my sweaty palm on my jeans. I walked to mom's room. I knew they were following behind me, but I didn't turn around. I was afraid of what I might see. I smiled to Sasha as I passed and continued past her to mom's room. I knocked on her open door and she turned to see me. If she looked bad before it was nothing like she looked now. Her eyes had sunken in more and she looked so tired. So very tired and pale.