Sing To Me While I'm Dying

Chapter Thirty Two

After we had arrived back home I sat on the couch with Jasper sitting next to me. My head is laying on his shoulder and he has his arm around me.

"I shouldn't have gone."

"No, I think it was good for you. You were able to let out your pent up emotion." He said rubbing my back.

"I hate crying, it makes me feel weak."

"But you are anything but weak." He protests. I roll my eyes and he laughs. "You are the strongest person I know Vie." He says immediately becoming serious.

"Thanks," I mumble. The rest of the day was just spent lounging around the house. This whole week was going to be review and then next week was our finals. I can't wait for school to be over, I just want to focus in my mother.

The next morning I got ready quickly. I wheeled my wheelchair out of my room and into the kitchen. I was going to bring it to school. I don't think I can handle walking all the time yet. Once at school I got my books from Jasper's locker and made my way to Homeroom. Jasper wheeled me to the back of the room and bent down to my level.

"I'll see you later." He pecked my lips and smiled. "Do try to pay attention and do well on theses finals." He leaves just as the rest of the class began to file into the room. Seth came in, smiling at me.

"How are you today Vie?"

"Better than usual, how about you Seth?"

"I'm okay." I struggled to pay attention as the teacher spoke, but I couldn't keep my gaze from the window and my mind in the classroom. My whole life was going to change. There would be no more school as a safety net. I was going to be in my own, completely independent. I would have to get my own place. I couldn't live with Lizzy forever. I would have to get a job too. I sigh and close my eyes. I don't have time for any of that, my mother was dying. When the bell rang I jumped, not realizing the whole period had gone by. I hadn't heard a word the teacher and said! I shake my head and start to wheel myself out. Jasper met me halfway out of the room and wheeled me to my next class. The rest of the day went by quickly until we got to music. Jasper, Leo, and I were sitting in the class room. The teacher came in smiling at us.

"Your regular teacher has decided to make the song project your final. It will be due Friday." I look at Jasper and Leo who both have wide eyes. "Work on in for the rest of the period." I turn to them and laugh.

"We forgot about it." Leo says with a small smile on his face.

"What are we going to do?"

"We can use my mother's song." I whisper. "She wrote it, so we can use it." They nod.

"We don't have time to write a whole song." We decide to just use my mother's song and not write our own. I wrote the lyrics down and gave them to Jasper.

"I don't have time to write a guitar part either, we can just sing it together."

"I think we should just sing it, I don't think we need a guitar part." After the bell rings I am walking to Jasper's locker. Leo left to go to his locker and said he would meet us at the car.

"Jasper what happens after this, I don't have a job and I don't have a place to stay."

"Vie, you have a place to stay and don't worry about finding a job. You have other things to worry about. I was looking for a job over the weekend in the papers. I even applied to a few of them."

"I don't want you to have to take care of me!"

"Vie, it's only for a little while."

"You still have to take care of me! Lizzy has been taking care if me for some time and I feel horrible."

"Vie, your in no position to take care of yourself."

"I'm fully capable."

"You can barely walk, who would employ you?"

"I will find someone."

"Where will you stay? What if you fall and your alone?"

"I'm not a child."

"We know Vie, but you can't live on your own just yet." I stay quiet, fuming in my wheelchair. He drives us home in silence. When we get home I got straight to my room. I stand up and my knees shake.

"I'm not a child." I whisper as tears fall down my face. "I'm so much worse."

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