I can't believe what just he did! He's angry! No, his furious and hurt? I immediately turned around to chase him. Damn! I don't like seeing him like that. My chest tightened by the thought that his mad and pain was visible in his eyes. Ang ewan talaga ng lalaking yun! Biglang magagalit at magwa-walkout! Meron ba yun? Ang corny Alexis!
Naabutan ko siya na papasok na sa sasakyan niya, I grabbed his shoulder and I was stunned cause he was emotionless. His eyes are dead and his stares are cold, it's like I'm seeing his other side. He was just looking at me intensely as if he wanted to say something but he chooses not to spill it.
" What's wrong Jay? " I asked him in a calm way. Ayokong sabayan ang topak niya dahil walang mangyayring maganda pag pinatulan ko siya.
" It's nothing Alexis. Just get inside now. " he said coldly as he looked away. Damn him! Nothing? Sa itsura niya ngayon? Nothing lang? Wow! I'm trying to control my temper right now cause it will just lead us fighting but I can't help it! He's lying to me!
" Seriously Jay?! Nothing ang isasagot mo sakin?! Ginagawa mo naman akong tanga eh! Fuck that nothing! Sa itsurang mong yan?! Gustong mong masapak?! " inis kong sabi sa kanya. Nakakagago lang bes! Halata namang galit siya! Tapos nothing? Hindi parin siya makatingin sakin, nakapamewang na siya. Got it! It's his way of calming himself not to argue and raised his voice on me. Jesus! I don't care if he will raise his voice! Either we will fight! It's just normal for two people who were fighting over a thing! When he doesn't speak, I start throwing him questions.
" My God Jay! Sumagot ka naman! Ano bang problema! Sabihin mo! Hindi yung bigla ka nalang magdadrama ng ganyan! Bakit ka ba galit huh! Hoy sagutin mo ako! " I said yelling at him. I was mad too! Damn him! Nagtatagalog na ako sa sobrang inis ko sa kanya. I was about to nag him again when he suddenly looked at me with his lonely eyes. He was laughing with no humor that makes me scared.
" Are you ready to hear it Alexis? I'm telling you, it will change us if you'll know. So please, don't push all my buttons. " he said like he was dying or something. Then his mood changed quickly, he was now smiling from ear to ear. He was back to being a happy and annoying one. And why I could feel that his just faking it?
" Huh? Stop smiling at me Dominic Jay Tan! It's not funny! Answer me!! " I said hysterically. He's just smiling while I was being irritated! Nakakainis kaya! Gaaaah! Ang sarap talaga bugbugin ng lalaking toh!
" Engaged ka na pala. " he said flatly which caused me to shut my mouth. I'm engaged. Bakit parang ngayon lang nagsink-in sakin? And all the anger and pain I'm feeling comes crashing to me. I'm planning to accept in managing our hotel, I'm about to tell abuela about it last night but she was busy entertaining the guest. Kaya pala hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko kagabi, kaya pala. Wait! Damon has a rumored girlfriend! And why the hell he agreed on it! Damn him!
I pursed my lips from preventing not to cry. I hate my life honestly. It's like I was born to be their puppet, I was born to please them. Ba't ganun? Pati sa kung sino ang papakasalan ko, kailangan pa nilang pakialaman. Kasalanan ko ba na pinilit lang din si Lola na pakasalan si Lolo para maisalba ang negosyo nila noon? Kasalanan ko rin ba na iniwan kami ni Daddy? Oh, I forgot to tell you. Hiwalay na parents ko, pumupunta lang siya para makita kami. Kaya madalas, hindi ko siya nakakasama. They had an agreement with mom, he has still the right cause he was our father. All of them we're just civil to each other, treating each one like it was just normal. Dad cheats, that's what mom always telling us. And I haven't got the chanced to heard dad's side. I was just 3 years old when it happened so I have no idea what mom went through, but it doesn't mean that they have the right to manipulate my life. Kasalan ko rin ba kung lahat ng mga tita ko ay iniwan rin gaya ng ginawa ni dad? Kasalanan ba namin?? Bakit kami ang pinaparusahan nila sa kasalanang di kami ang may gawa! Ba't ganun!
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Never Over You - Santillan Series I
Romance" He Chased Me, I Didn't Mind. He Gave Up, That Awakens Me. I Chased Him, But It's Too Late. And Now His Back As Cold As Ice, Would I Be Able To Handle The Pain? "
