Never Over You - Santillan Series I

Chapter 26; History [4]

I was deaf for a moment and all I could hear was the loud sound of my heart. I can't even breathe properly. Cold sweats was forming in my head. My hands are shaking. My throat runs dry. I can't think properly. I've encountered so many confessions like this. But his confession was different cause it made me felt so many emotions that I couldn't explain. What's wrong with me? He was still looking at me but this time, he was nervous. There, I could read him now. And he looks tensed that he was breathing rougly. Which I find it cute. Just imagine, the emotionless and cold guy was was like an open book now that you could read easily.

" I'm not asking for your permission cause I'd still court you whether you like it or not. " gone the emotion, he was back to his cold and intimidating tone. I can't help but smile. Wow! He has the guts huh. And I wonder if it still remains if he would know our traditional courtship. I can't say something but he has an effect on me. I'm afraid to name it. I'm afraid to risk. Afraid of my own feelings. Cause we are too young. I mean, if ever I would enter a relationship, I want him to be my end game. Oh, God Alexis! He just like you! He didn't offer marriage! What are you thinking?

" Okay. " is all I've said. I don't know why I give him my blessing but I'd like to try it. For me to know why he has an effect on me.

He wants to drive me home but I declined. Mahirap na. Baka mahuli ako ni mama. She and Abuela warned me not to entertain suitors as of now. Nag taxi ako pauwi at problemado kung san ko itatago ang bulaklak na bigay niya. I was praying to all saints na sana, wala si mama sa pinto na bubungad sakin or di kaya sa sala. Shit lang! When the car stopped at our gate, I did a sign of a cross. Ayoko namang itapon toh. First-time ko makatanggap ng bulaklak. So I'll keep it, no matter what. And maybe, just maybe. That the saints grant my prayers, cause I don't see mom's trace. And I did the safety way, I run fast to my room. Just in case. Hindi ako makatulog. I was still thinking of what happened today. I still can't believe it. It feels surreal. I was still in awe. I groaned when I saw the time, it's already dawn! Damn shit!

I woke up with a heavy feeling. Ang sakit ng mata at ulo ko. I hate the feeling of lack of sleep! Dahil alam kung konting kalabit lang sakin, sasabog ako bigla. When I arrived at the uni, I was welcomed by the annoying faces of Simon and Gab. Oh God! Mas lalong sumakit ang ulo ko. Nilampasan ko sila dahil wala talaga ako sa mood.

" Ang sungit. " komento ni Gab na natatawa. Sinabayan nila akong maglakad. Nasa magkabilang kilid ko sila.

" Puyat pa. I wonder why. " Simon added. Ang sarap talaga pag-untugin! If I know, alam nila. Nagpaparinig pa. Tss. Wala siya. Usually, tatlo silang nakabuntot sakin. Ayoko namang magtanong. Nakakahiya. Pinabayaan ko nalang. Tho, kating-kati na akong magtanong. Tahimik lang kami habang naglalakad pero maya't maya ang pagsipol ng dalawa, isama po ang mga nakakalokong ngiti nila. Nag-iinit na ang ulo ko. At ng marating namin ang daan kung san magkakanya-kanya nami papunta sa first class namin, they just smile meaningfully. They just waved at me and I start walking to where my first class starts.

My major subject went smooth. The hell week was already done. The sleepless nights and the brain storming finally ended. Sembreak was in the air and it excites dahil yun lang yung time na pinapayagan akong maglakwatsa. Pero may curfew parin at dapat, mga pinsan ko lang din ang kasama ko. Okay narin sakin kaysa sa hindi nila payagan. Our prof dimiss us early. And it's just already 10:30! Masyado pang maaga. At wala akong klase buong tanghali! Dahil mamaya pang 5 pm ang huling klaseng papasukan ko. So what to do to kill the time?

Papalabas na ako ng nakatanggap ako ng text, it was from Simon. Telling me to go up from the rooftop. Huh? Rooftop? Why would I go there? And maybe he knows that I was hesitant because he calls.