Aphmau Yaoi One shots.

10. No more smiles (Guy x Nate)

(Hey guys, Nami here. And Woah! Almost 1.7 k, are you kidding me?? Is this a joke?!?!! Seriously you guys are so awesome!! Again sorry for the lack of new chapters, I've been busy. Anyways hope you enjoy and please please please stay awesome and stay cool. Also keep in mind that you can suggest ideas for chapters, maybe certain ships for certain ideas or something like that. I give credit to anyone to whom I based the chapter from.)

Guy had had enough. He was done with all the false excitement, happiness that bubbled through him. It was making him sick to even think about doing. But then why was he still doing it? Like on instinct, it just happens. He may plan to give it up but then it takes a different path.

This lead to churning pain in Guy as he continued on everyday. He might have the brightest smile, and the highest energy but to Guy, he knew it was just shielding the darkness growing within him. Everyone believed the fake cover, believing nothing was wrong with him. Well except for Nate.

Nate didn't completely know what was wrong with his boyfriend, just knew that something was off about him. He could find dull light in his eyes when Guy was greeting new guests to Love Love Paradise. Nate sensed a deep feeling inside of him when he stood next to the shorter male. And it was starting to worry Nate, knowing something was off.

Guy nor Nate said a word about it to each other, for their own reasons. Nate was afraid that he'd make a wrong move and mess everything up, like hurt Guy emotionally. Meanwhile Guy, he feared that Nate wouldn't like him anymore after finding out who he really was. Hopefully somehow that would change.. Maybe..

(TS to about 1 month later)

Guy sighed, sitting down on the couch. The resort worker apartment that him and Nate shared was so quiet that someone could've thought it was abandoned. The guide, or guy-de as some would say, was exhausted from working all day. Maybe too exhausted.

"Geez, when did the paradise get this busy?" He mumbled leaning against the arm of the couch.

He closed his eyes, only to get a fierce flash of loud laughter, smiles, and crazy excitement. Taking Guy by surprise, he quickly opened his eyes, They become wide, his souls shrinking. A numb ringing ran through his head as his breathing increased.

The laughter of the guests traveled in a never-ending loop in his head. Guy covered his ears, his fingers grasping his brown hair. Now brimmed with tears, his eyes flinched shut tightly.

Guy slowly started to breath like he was sobbing, and unnoticed he was. He couldn't take it, the depressed side had been building up for too long. Some days, Guy would come home to the apartment while Nate was still on his shift, and end up crying for pain of reason of no joy.

Nate probably had no idea about what Guy was going through, and Guy intended to keep it that way. He would always break down when his boyfriend wasn't around, easier for Guy to handle his concern. But Guy was also concerned that this may be getting way to far out of his control.

"Just leave me alone, please. Just go away." Guy whispered as if it would work. The brunette curled himself up as close to the couch as possible, tears streaming down his face.

Would anyone be able to help me from this chaos realm, he thought not able to keep his mind straight. I don't even think anyone would understand, this world of darkness I call my head.

"Please, I just wanted to be happy. Here at Love Love Paradise with Nate, and make others have the greatest time while they're here. The happiness I've been bonded into has corrupted my mind. Is there some way out?" Guy cried softly, feeling black embrace him.

Was this pain conflicted every day meant be a curse for me? Yet I yowl out for comfort from my loved ones, in which I do not have. For my family was gone long ago. And thus the one that I do have doesn't know about my daily struggles.

What did I do to earn this horrible nightmare? Did I do something wrong or am I to do it in the future? I only wish for the only loved one I have left to not be joined in my world of pain. For he has done nothing wrong to deserve it.

Nate is the only thing that could probably set me free from the mess yet I don't want to lose him. I fear that he will think of me differently, be ashamed of what I have become. The tears I cry everyday are enough to make me drown. All the smiles and laughs I make towards the guests of Love Love Paradise are indeed false. Although I wish for them to be true.

When I started this job, they were but now what people know me as is the bright and energized Guy the paradise guy-de. The only thing now that makes me smile honestly is Nate. But even now that's rare, just when he's around. And he's the only thing in my life that's been keeping me going. But now I see that I might just be dragging him down...

The words spoken by Guy's mouth replayed in his head. The empty thoughts of his mind had been whispered to what seemed no one. Was he expecting it to lift weight off his shoulders.

"Maybe Nate better off without me...." Guy's heart pierced with pain at the dare thought of leaving his boyfriend. But what if it was for the best?...

"Guy.."

The broken male gasped quietly, his eyes widened as big as the moon. The souls of his eyes along with his pupils dilated smaller as fear reflected in them. They were red, and blurred by tears.

"Guy, you gotta snap out of it, dude."

Guy managed to look upwards to see Nate kneeled down beside the couch. He winced, pulling his gaze away from Nate, refusing to show his pain. He felt Nate place his hand on his, holding it gently.

"You should've just told me, Guy. I might've been able to help." Nate caught Guy off guard, feeling tough regret and sorrow. In both of them for that matter.

"I-I am sorry, I just-t..." Guy's voice was weak, barely able to make a sound.

Nate carefully sat on the couch next to Guy, then pulled the smaller male into his lap. Guy, who was in shock, didn't know if he should except the offer of comfort or deny it because he didn't deserve it.

Nate wrapped his arms around Guy's smaller frame, resting the side of his head on top of his boyfriend's. "Don't hide something like that from me again, ok? It scares me to know that you're feeling pain."

Guy finally shattered, snuggling himself as close to Nate as possible while crying. His only response was a teared up nod. Nate could feel himself hurting inside. How long has he been in pain, Nate wondered then decided not to worry about that now.

He never liked the sound of Guy's sobs or cries. But now he'd be able to make them smiles and laughter. In which it did, turning Guy's life around.

(Ok I just finished this today, only by 2 sentences. Btw I made this at least a month ago so yeah. Also it's unedited so you know and plus THX SO MUCH FOR 1.8 k.)