I just made some notes on my experiences on being and FtM transgender man.
I am 14 and have excepted myself for two years now.
In this journal I make tips on anything that could potentially help some of you. you could give me tips or just comment...
Ok. So, I just got permission to wear goth style makeup.
My step mom told me that if I have the courage to go out in public with Black Veil Brides makeup. I can.
On any day of the year. Not just Halloween.
For those of you who don't know black Veil Brides I'll put a picture down here:
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She won't let me leave the house with the hair though. Which is fair.
I absolutely adore this band. And I love their look. This was from 2009/10 maybe 2011 at the latest.
They don't wear makeup anymore. Tecnecly the band broke up last year. But the singer Andy is still singing with his own records.
Anyway. What I think is the contradiction is, that my family thinks that boys can't wear makeup. They are obviously trying to make me stay a girl.
Either way. I'm don't think my dad would approve of the black metal makeup anyway so I'm gonna buy it for Halloween then keep it in my room and practice it until I'm comfortable going outside with it on.
Also. Makeup give a me dysphoria when I wear it because. In my school. Makeup is for girls.
Makeup is for girls. Suits are for boys. It's ok for a girl to wear a suit. But it's not ok for boys to wear makeup.
Whatever. I'm going to be a fabulous boy in my black metal, goth makeup.
Also. My birthday is in a few days. I'm so freaking excited. I'll update again on my birthday.
November 1st. Is my birthday. I'm so close to 14.
Where I live, 14 is the age that I can get a job.
I can't wait to get a job. I know it sounds weird but I want a job. I love having my own money. Because my parents can't say no what I buy. Unless it's something that they won't allow in their house or something like a snake or me getting a tattoo.
This chapter is just a bunch of rambling. I don't have a title for it. Whatever.
