Afraid To Fall In Love

Confessions

"How dare you speak her name in front of me, how dare you remind me of something I have buried long ago, what do you know.... No one deserves to be broken, you were dumped at the alter and your so called groom is still no where to be found, no explanations nothing... so don't you dare talk to me about what i deserve" I shout hitting the door with my fist

She walked towards the door enraged grabbing the trail of her cape as she tried to open the door,

"Open this door before I lose it" she shout turning back to look at me, her face covered with hatred as her eyes darken.

"What have I done to you Minal?, you have changed so much in a short period of time" I held my breath a bit, sitting down on the edge of the bed, with my face in my palms,

" You have done everything wrong...everything! I just hate you, I don't want you in my life....I don't!" She shout,

" I know you don't love me now but if I am able to love you then you will also learn to love me, I am in love with you!... I don't know how it happened I swear it... I am in love with you" I kept muttering over and over again.

"Just listen to yourself, what ever it is you better end it, I can never love you, you are the enemy, you better give me a divorce quick!.. Before you get more ideas into your thick...." she spoke giving me a scrutinizing look.

"Shut up! Will you, I having tried going away from you but I couldn't, you were the reason I went to Morocco, you are the reason I do everything these days, I can't help it..... I am in love with you" I turned to look at her with bloodshot eyes,

"Ana dole ne? I don't love you, my heart is with another..... Let me be dan Allah" she replied with tears running down her cheek.

We were interrupted by a sudden knock on the door,
"Minal we are already late please hurry and your phone has been ringing non stop" Nasreen yelled.

" You can go on without her" I yelled back,

"Please don't leave without me, I will be right there" she yelled pulling the door knob

" I said you can leave, she is not going" I shout getting more comfortable on the bed,

" Haba yaya, Amma will be so upset.. You know that she is the.. "

"If you speak another word you won't be going either"

Finally all I could here was the sound of Minal crying on the bare floor, I had to ignore even though it was heartbreaking, I never meant it, I just had to do what I did, I wasn't going to let her go in front of hundreds of people dressed like that.

Another knock came with Mamie's voice yelling " Mahmud open this door"

I quickly got out of bed and walked towards the door unlocking it, the door was pushed open before I could reach the door knob,

Minal

I quickly rose from where I sat crying my eyes out, and running behind Mamie and out the door,

"Mamie look at the way she is dressed, how can I let her go out like this, she is my wife and I don't want any other man looking at her, please Mamie" he pleaded

" well I am glad you have acknowledged the fact that she is your wife and that you have some sort of responsibility towards her but this is her friend's wedding, she has put in a lot of effort...there must be something we can do" Mamie tried to explain it to him

"Okay! She should change this outfit" he replied,

"Haba yaya it's Kathy Anthony fa" Amani chirped