Finding Us Again

Do You Think We Can Do This?

Ian's Pov--

Waking up all wrapped up with Nina was like a dream. Honestly. I felt like I was dreaming. I've been waking up feeling like I was dreaming every day since that first night in Atlanta.

I didn't move. I just laid there, taking in the sight before me.
Nina had her head laying on my chest. Our legs wrapped around each other's. Our arms wrapped around one another.
Her hair was spread wildly around my chest and cascaded over her shoulder and chest.
She looked so peaceful. Sleeping so peacefully. She looked like an angel. And I knew she was mine.

I didn't want to disturb her at all. I wanted to let her sleep. And I wanted to soak up the moment I was in. I just wanted to watch my love sleep peacefully.
I gently moved her hair out of her face. So I could see her beauty.

I just laid there, staring at the most amazing woman in world. The woman who's been the light in my life for years. The woman who's loved me for so many years. She truly was the most amazing person I know. And she was laying on my chest.

As I was laying there, looking at her, I was in awe. I was amazed.
I was amazed by her. By the level of comfort I had with her. I was amazed that, even after everything, she still loved me. Even after us breaking up, me marrying Nikki. Her dating, her leaving the show. All the arrangements we got in to after breaking up. I was amazed that she still loved me. That she still cared and still had the same feelings for me. I was amazed that she was able to put it all behind her and support me in this horrible time I was going through.
That she was able to look past all of that and be here for me. That she could still love me. Like I said she was amazing.

I looked over at the clock and seen that it was 12 already. I guess we really were tired.
I slowly got up, being careful not to disturb my sleeping beauty, and went into the bathroom.
I figured could shower and by the time I was done Nina would probably be awake.
I used the restroom and went to the kitchen to start a pot of coffee before my shower. I was quite in getting my clothes out for the day.
I grabbed a pair of black denim pants and a light grey v-neck t-shirt.
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fter laying my clothes out I went into the bathroom to start the shower.

While I was standing under the hot water my thoughts were all about Nina. And the last week we had shared. And then my thoughts went to last night.
Thinking about what she said about us moving here. And start our lives together.
And then my mind went to what she said right before we had gotten into the shower. And her "enjoying the time she had with me".
It gave me a horrible feeling.
It was almost like she thought I was going to change my mind. Or that I was going to get over what happened and leave her. Or something like that. And that's not what was going on.

I wasn't going to change my mind. Or move on. Nina is all I want. She's all I ever wanted. I got side tracked. But I knew she's all I've ever wanted. And now I just needed to show her that.
I needed to show her that I was all in this. That I was all about us, our future, our life, our happiness and our love. I needed to show her that I was and always will be in love with her.
I needed to reassure her that I was hers. And will always be hers.
I had the perfect plan. Well I thought it was perfect. I'm gonna have to run it by Paul.

I knew I needed to show her that this wasn't just a right now thing. That I was serious about her and us. That I was all about our future together. I hated that she felt this way. And I know that I was to blame for it. And that made it worse.

As I stepped out of the shower and went into the room Nina was stretching. She looked so beautiful.

"Good morning love." I smiled at her and bent down to kiss her.