Until You | Kim Seokjin ✔️

Chapter 38

Yoona's POV

"Yoona? What..? Why..?!"

I looked up to see a horrified Jin as I felt tears slide down my cheek and wet the back of my hand.

Hearing him say those six words was all it took and I was a crying mess.

"Did I say something wrong? I am an idiot! Let's just forget I said anything at all.. okay?" Jin said, cupping my face and wiping away my tears with his thumb.

"You didn't say anything wrong! I don't even know why I am crying!" I said sniffling.

"You don't know..?" He asked, voicing my own confusion.

I shook my head as I felt a whole new wave of tears coming on.

"Woah! Woah! Yoona!" He exclaimed pulling me into a hug as I cried against his chest. He held onto my shaking shoulders, rubbing my back trying to calm me down.

"Shh... it's alright. Let it out. I am right here." He said stroking my hair while I ugly-cried all over his shirt.

"I-I don't even know w-why.." I mumbled between hiccups. Jin tightened his arms around me.

My breathing had come back to a relatively normal level when I heard voices and footsteps approaching us, getting louder as they came closer. I quickly realized where I was and tried to push away from Jin, but he held onto me, not letting me move an inch.

"You don't have to worry about them." He whispered reassuringly.

Once I had calmed down and was sure that I would not have another breakdown, I gently pushed away from Jin, wiping my face with the tissue Jin held up for me. I don't remember there being a tissue box on the couch.

"Jiminie," Jin said answering my questioning eyes.

I groaned, hiding my face in my hands. Even though I knew that his members had seen me, I was hoping to pretend that it didn't happen.

"Are you okay..?" Jin asked nervously. I must have scared him. Heck, I was scaring myself.

I eyed the glass of water he held towards me. Please don't tell me another member...

"Kookie," Jin said, reading my mind.

Wonderful.

I might as well have called a meeting of the entire group while I was bawling my eyes out, so no one could miss it.

Jin nudged me out of my thoughts. "Yeah, I am okay. Sorry about your shirt.." I said, seeing a dark wet patch on his blue shirt.

"Is everything okay..? Did something happen? Is it related to work?" Jin asked, his brows furrowed in concern.

"No, no. Everything is fine at work. It was probably because of..." I simply nodded my head in his direction.

"Me? You said I didn't say anything wrong!"

"You didn't! I meant it was because of... us. It's just that the last few weeks have been crazy."

"Ever since we met again..." Jin's low voice was coloured with guilt.

"Yeah. But I am in no way blaming you so stop looking guilty. I never regretted meeting you on that mountain five years ago and I don't regret meeting you now."

I saw his eyes soften in relief and a small smile appeared on his worried face.

"It breaks my heart to see you go through all this and instead of being a friend to you, I was just adding to your problems and I am so sorry for that!" My emotions clearly taking over the reins of this conversation. 

"You have nothing to apologize for!"

"Yes, I do. We aren't kids anymore. I can't blame you for avoiding me all those years ago when I did the same to you for the past month or so."

"In the beginning, I was really upset with you. I was hurt but I could also understand why you did it."

"Eventually, I realized that I was more upset with myself than I was with you. The fact that something that you did so long ago could break me down in an instant meant that I had been lying to myself. I always thought I was mature and you didn't have any power over me but you did. My ego wasn't ready to accept it and the child in me wanted to hurt you back the way you did."

When I saw that Jin was going to say something, I quickly put my hand over his hand, stopping him. "Hear me out..?" I pleaded.

"Every time I came to your company, I would think that today would be the day I would talk to you. But it would so happen that either I wouldn't see you or if I did, I would see you quickly walk away from me. It burdened me to see that you couldn't even be in the same room as me. Moreover,  knowing that you were doing it for me, filled me up with so much guilt!"

"And then to see you collapse! I have never been so scared in my life. You have no idea how terrified I was! All that I kept thinking was what if something happened to you? W-what if I hadn't been there? What if I couldn't get you to the hospital in time? I-I had just got you back-k! I couldn't lose you again! I-I..uh.." Sobs preventing me from completing my sentence.

"Yoona, come here." Jin, said pulling my crying form onto his lap. If it was any other time, I would have probably jumped off his lap but not today. Today, I just adjusted myself on his lap, my right cheek sinking into his chest as I pulled my knees closer to my chest. His arms were around me, supporting me not just physically but emotionally too.

"I am so sorry for scaring you. But, it's alright now. I am fine now! I am right here and I am not going anywhere, okay? You need to stop worrying about the 'what ifs'. It's all good now. Yoona?" He rubbed comforting circles on my back.

I just nodded in response, my voice still not stable enough to answer. I didn't want to worry him with my tears but seeing him in the hospital had affected me to the point that I had woken up in the middle of the night, in cold sweat, thinking he was still in the hospital. As I thought back on the nightmares, fresh sobs racked my body.

Jin held me tighter, pulling me closer to him, almost as if he was trying to absorb my pain. He didn't say anything but I felt him drop kisses on top of my head. He just held me, stroking my hair in a calming rhythm.

"In spite of everything, you opened up to me about what you were going through, trusting me enough while I had been so petty about everything," I mumbled against his chest.

"You weren't being petty. Don't ever question if you have been a good friend to me. You have been a better friend than I could have ever been had I been in your shoes. It's all sorted now. We're good. Things are good. You've cried enough for a decade at least, so I won't have to worry about your random bursts of emotions for a while." He teased me, pinching my nose and I playfully whacked his chest.

For the next few minutes, only the ticking of a wall clock was heard, occasionally interrupted by my sniffling.

The ticking and Jin's heartbeat were the last things my conscious mind remembered before it settled into a comfortable slumber.

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A/N: Still no clue where this book is going. Someone send help!

While my brain was having a meltdown about finishing this book, it managed to spout an idea for a one-shot and I thought I'll give it a shot. Aye! 😎 Get it? I feel like I haven't cracked enough punny jokes.

Anyway, so it's a Kim Taehyung One-shot called Pins and Needles. You can find it in my published stories if you are interested.

P.S: It's not a smut so its safe for any younger readers out there.

For all you people, whose faces just fell reading 'it's not smut', calm thy hormones! 😅

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